They say, âWhen one door closes, another door opens,â and I know that is true. Then again my door was always half open and half closed. I could see and imagine a happy life, but the âunknownâ was preventing me from opening the door completely.
I have been crocheting for years and when some friends asked if I could teach them I said, âYes,â and told them the items they were going to need. I was confident I could teach them, but I was beyond wrong. The only thing I was able to teach them was how to start it and hold the needle.
I didnât want to give up and neither did they, but after two more days they only were able to get one row. They gave up and no matter how much I tried to encourage them, they didnât want to try again.
I started thinking maybe just knowing how to crochet wasnât enough, so I put it aside and gave up on teaching. I am out of work for three weeks (due to a fall at work) and I thought it was a good idea to teach what I love and thatâs crochet.
I canât wait until I get some more crochet hooks and then I will be signing up. I want to learn more and maybe one day I can teach what I have learnedâŚâŚ.
Time to get back to the world of words. I cannot believe I stopped doing one of the few things I enjoy doing. I was playing follow the leader and that leader wasnât helping me get to the top, but barely keeping me above ground.
Every day was just like the last. You get up, get ready for work, come back tired, and you do it again. You tell yourself today will be different, you know what you have to do, but you are still playing that video over and over.
I am tired of watching that show. It’s time for something, âNEWâ. I am thinking about one of my favorite movies, âSister Act. I was thinking about the 2nd one, when Ms. Whoopi Goldberg was talking to the students, trying to encourage them to become a choir, well be more than what they thought they could be.
It is NOT too late for me to get back on track. I will write/type (rather I am writing a short story or working on my book) every day, I will crochet every day (I am going to get a certificate to be able to teach what I love), and I am already creating notebooks every day on bookbolt.com
There is more to this, but I am working on that as well. I also learned I like making fruit trays, but thatâs another story. It is time to get a cup of tea and get back to being a BETTER ME! I will keep moving⌠I am also on the hunt for a new animeâŚ
I am done with the same old same old. I know I am not alone. You go to work, do your very best, pay your bills, and maybe have enough to treat yourself once in a while.
I am done complaining and allowing others to add on to those same complaints. I work at a job I donât care to work at, but we all do what we have to do. (until I can do better)
I enjoy the world of words. I may not be the best and I know I make mistakes, but I enjoy doing it anyway. I had stopped this enjoyment for way too long, allowing the world to step in where a smile used to be, but itâs time for the real me to be set free.
I thought others would care to enjoy writing down their thoughts or just take some time to be creative. I watched a youtube channel about creating notebooks. I admit I watched it for months before I decided to make them.
I learned how to make a notebook on bookbolt.com and add it on Amazon.com. I wished I had only done one and once it was posted, look at it, and I would have my unasked question?
I was thinking you could see the inside of the book, because not all composition books are just lines. I found a way around that problem. In my description I not only let everyone know what my notebook is about, but what it looks like. (At least the ones after the first set)
It would have been nice if I was told about marketing. Okay, Google was my next step. I found one or two articles. I liked this one the best:
Okay, I took all my notes, but there has to be something faster. (always look for more answers to your questions. I got some of my answers from the above post) If you guessed I turned to YouTube, then you would be right, and I watched a few videos. I will not be able to add any videos. People talked about what they did, but now how they did it. They also bragged about going on vacation and living a better life and that wasn’t cool to me.
I was thinking this was going to be easy, but I was wrong. I thought you could just click on a picture, add a link to get the product, and that was it. I was wrong.
I also thought I could post the few books I have on Amazon and promote it in my blog (and then add that post on Pinterest). I was wrong once again.
I am saying my prayers as I do every day. The next step in my journey will be my Best Journey.
I hadnât planned on posting too many items other than my books, and the few items I have bought. So, I guess all that reading and videos I watched was a waste of time.
I know I have gained some weight, but I didnât realize how much? I was walking and working out as much as I could, but once I started a full time job – I no longer had the extra time.
I was doing what I called the starvation diet, because my doctor had me to fast between 5am to 5pm. I have talked to a few people who said it worked for them, and how I shouldnât give up on it. They even said the longer I do this less eating I will get used to it.
They didnât have to tell me how tired it made them feel or leave you in a bad mood, because you are hungry. I found myself eating more candy, because I was trying not to get anything to eat.
I also realized I ate twice as much as I did before once I got home. I was eating beyond just being hungry. I cannot stand where I work and the people I am forced to work with and I am sure that is why I am over eating.
I donât know or like the person I see looking back at me through the mirror. I donât recall how I got here, but I am working on bringing back the person I used to be. I know I have to take one step at a time before I can see her once again.
I am working on being a better me both mind and body. I am already setting my dreams free by writing and creating new crochet projects and I am happy. Life is way too short to do anything less.
I do not know why I thought I could start my day without a cup of coffee and not get a headache. It has been a long time since I walked out of my front door before drinking my favorite beverage.
I ran out of coffee creamer. There was French vanilla creamer in the fridge, but if it’s not vanilla ice cream I do not want it. Vanilla will never lighten my coffee cup. Yes, I tried it once and once was enough.
Today was the first time I ever had two cups of coffee after 7am, after I got back from Walmart, with three bottles of my favorite coffee creamer.
3am Thunder of Words 
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