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Two Thoughts…..

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Two thoughts:

  1. The meaning of the word, ā€œSmileā€.

*https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/smile

Smile (noun) : a facial expression in which the eyes brighten and the corners of the mouth curve slightly upward and which expresses especially amusement, pleasure, approval, or sometimes scorn.

When a baby smiles, every adult gives a smile back. Is that smile, because he or she is happy or just has gas? That question will never be answered. Smiling is based on one’s feelings and maybe showing a different expression then what they are actually thinking. Example :

Happy ~ A full smile, with teeth showing

             ~ A full smile, without showing teeth.

             ~ A laughing smile

Thinking ~ one shows a smile, because their thoughts are happy, a good idea, or stopping themselves from saying some hurtful words to someone or binding their time until they can find another job.

Knowing ~ People judge you for every little thing and they believe their thoughts are true about who they think you are and you just look at them with a smile, because you know your self-worth and their opinions doesnā€™t matter. 

I didnā€™t realize my smile put people off and I donā€™t look friendly. I normally give a half of a smile, unless I am laughing, or get caught off guard when I am smiling for myself.

  1. Talking to the computer to type out your words. I thought that would be a good idea – until I did it.

When babies are smiling, are they smiling because they are happy     Smiling shows one feeling or does it? When babies smile, are they smiling ’cause they’re happy, they’re hungry, or  maybe it’s just gas?As we get older we we still smile when we’re happy. Or maybe we smile because we don’t want no one that know what we’re feeling. Smiling isn’t just.Showing teeth. Some people smile with their teeth.Some people smiled, their mouths closed ’cause they had bad teeth. Are they happy when you’re smiling? Are they thinking when they smiling or you?A smile could be for any reason, it just depends.And every, everybody’s face.Shows different emotions when they are smiling.I smell.Well it depends on what I’m thinking. If I’m just smiling cause hey.I’ll do a half smile.Enough normal for me.And that’s not what I look like. I’m not smiling to be performing. I’m not smiling just to be smiling. Sometimes I could be upset and I’ll put I’ll plaster a smile on my face.The bike might the hold back my words. Sometimes I’ll smile.That’s a quick thought, just come through my head and.Hey.And this is who I am.But a smack of me for mean anything. It’s all depends on how that person is feeling and how someone else looks at you when they see you smiling. Some people may think you’re smiling ’cause you.Let’s see, I’m gonna put this When a little kid is getting ready to do something, they’ll.Take take my niece foot for for for example.Just once you get an idea, something that she knows she’s not supposed to be doing, she’ll look up and look around. Then if she noticed someone looking at it, just she hold her head down a little bit. Then she had the smile on her face. It’s not a happy smile, it’s a interesting smile.Then I’m like, OK, what you doing? Whatever it is, don’t do it.Then you just have to laugh because a smile could either show what you what you’re feeling, show what you’re thinking, or don’t show it on.It just all depends on the person.So a smile could be more than just a smile.What’s in your smile say about you?What are you?Projecting towards the world When you smile, do you care what others think of you when you’re smiling?Does it matter?What people think about you if they see you smiling? Are you performing when you smile, or are you smiling for yourself?My question is.Why are you smiling? What makes you smile?Is it for someone else?Was it for you?Remember.A smile is more than just a smile. 

It came out as one large paragraph (what you see in yellow). I didn’t feel like turning it into something that makes sense. I donā€™t think I will be doing that again, but at least I answered the two questions I was thinking about. Itā€™s time for me to get back to work.

Bye IV Now, LD*

PS- I had what’s in yellow so small you couldn’t read it, but after it was copied & paste it got bigger.

Eyes Open……

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How many times am I going to open a closed door, and realize my own words, 

ā€œI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEE.ā€

I had stopped working on this post, because I couldnā€™t go past the words I typed, the words I thought, and the words I said out loud ā€œI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEEā€.  I thought I should add to this. Two days later I am at work, listening to my gospel music, and really starting paying attention to the words.

I’ve heard this song countless times, danced to it, and listened to it in the  background sound as I moved about my day. But, yesterday it had me in tears. Kirk Franklinā€™s ā€œSmileā€ https://youtu.be/Z8SPwT3nQZ8?si=hqRGNGMaj3vf8lPV

I had to stop and think, am I going back to punishing the herd to be seen and playing follow the leader or am I going to put myself first.

**sidenote : Last Sunday I offered one person a ride to service, because I can have 1 person ride free with me. She asked if another person could ride with us, ā€œno, because I don’t have extra tickets. I only work two days a week and can barely get bus tickets for myself. (Also the first thought that came to my mind was. This same person got a ride home from service, but left me there and you want me to offer her a ride?) I realized I reached out almost begging someone to be my friend.

Then I realized  something else, I was going to have to stop going to my Church group, because they have upped the dues and I’m not going to put myself out to try and be in a group that really doesn’t see meā€¦.

Eyes open and holding a Smile. I know my self worth and it’s time I show it, not to people, but to myself. 

Bye IV Now LD*  

A New Look at Fruits Basket

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I gave up looking for a new anime to watch and started rewatching some of my favorites. I watched ā€œFruits Basketā€ , a Japanese manga series written and illustrated by Natsuki Takaya. It is also a shōjo manga magazine.  I started watching this series with different eyes and saw each character  in a new light.

Tohru Honda is trying to live her life the best she can, but she is holding onto a promise to her late mother that no mother wants to be kept. She thought that she should only love her mother and live her life through her motherā€™s words. A parent only wants the best for their child and as a child they should remember their parents with all their love and kindness they shared together.  

Tohru Honda  is a kind and caring person and people will always turn to that light. She had to be true to herself in order to really be loved in the end.

Kyo Sohma was never shown any love as a child and grew up with so much hatred.  There were a few who treated him like a person, but he still felt like an outsider. He was kept outside of the family he always wanted, but it was Tohru Honda who actually taught him what love was.

The whole Sohma family all wanted love and to be loved, but going about it in a different way. They shared an invisible bond that should have never been made. The head of the family  Akito Sohma wasnā€™t given a choice to be herself, so she took her frustration out on others, especially the girls. She was beyond jealous, because she was forced to live her life as a boy. 

This family has secrets not just with outsiders, but from each other. Each member fought to be themselves and to be free of their family bond. The adults just accepted it, but Izuka and Tohra wanted that bond to be broken. They knew in order for everyone to be truly loved they would have to be free.

Yuki Sohma was seen as the luckiest person in the family, because Akito paid attention to him the most. They didnā€™t know how much he was being put down with so many negative words that it would have broken anyone’s spirit.

I believe everyone was looking at the world through  Tohru Hondaā€™s eyes. She was kind and thought everyone should feel the same.  We all laugh, cry, feel pain, but most of all. We all want to be free to love and be loved.

This is my take on Fruits Basketā€¦

LD*