I cannot believe I let the rain stop me from going out. I am laughing, because I have always said, “I’m not that sweet, and I will not melt” and then I would go outside.
Then again I was warm under my blankets, the rain hitting the windows acting like a lullaby, and I didn’t have to go to work. It actually felt good to be able to change my mind about actually getting out of bed.
Then again the thought of drinking my coffee slowly and savoring its taste, brought a smile across my face, because that was the best idea I had today. I believe everyone should have a slow and relaxing day.
Time to work on my “Cream & Light Pink” baby blanket. Bye IV Now, LD*
I didn’t want to get out from under the warmth of my blankets, but the thought of my coffee has me out of bed, welcoming the cool air on my bare feet. I finally got my favorite pumpkin coffee creamer.
I keep wondering how many times I have to get up and start again? I seem to be falling more than I am standing strong. I am not stressing, because there is a difference between falling and laying down.
Proverbs 24:16 NIV [16] for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes. https://bible.com/bible/111/pro.24.16.NIV
Is it strength or just being stubborn? Is it worth trying? It’s new, why not go to school, and do this? Didn’t you try something last month? How many books did you sell? Are you sure you want to _
James 1:6 NIV [6] But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. https://bible.com/bible/111/jas.1.6.NIV
Matthew 14:31 NIV [31] Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” https://bible.com/bible/111/mat.14.31.NIV
I am beyond tired of listening to people’s doubts and trying to make them understand I am more than what they see. I don’t have to answer them or anyone. I know who I am and who is really on my side.
There are times when I want to talk to someone, willing someone to believe in me, but I realize not everyone can or will be there for you. It may look like I am standing alone, but I know who is really on my side.
My first thought was to start writing about my dream house. I have been thinking a lot about having a house, a cat, and a backyard where family and friends can gather for a cup of coffee or tea.
I enjoy watching shows about tiny houses and I know I can not live in a tiny house, but I have gotten a lot of good ideas on how I would like my first house to look like.
My first thought was to write them down, because just thinking about it isn’t good enough. I even bought a special book. I got this book on Amazon.
I couldn’t finish writing down my dream house. There were a lot of ideas, the more I thought about it, the more I actually wanted to see them, and not just in words.
I thought there should be a free app where I can actually see my dream house online. I researched a few sites and was about to download one, but I thought it would be best to read more about it before I download it onto my computer.
The app that I chose took too much information and I decided it wasn’t a good idea. I will go back to my original plan and start writing it down. Sometimes it’s good to stick with your first plan.
Once I have all of my ideas on paper, maybe one day I can get them to the right people, and they can help me set this dream free. Having a dream is wonderful and working on setting it free is great motivation to not give up.
3am Thunder of Words 
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