I know I have gained some weight, but I didn’t realize how much? I was walking and working out as much as I could, but once I started a full time job – I no longer had the extra time.

I was doing what I called the starvation diet, because my doctor had me to fast between 5am to 5pm. I have talked to a few people who said it worked for them, and how I shouldn’t give up on it. They even said the longer I do this less eating I will get used to it.

They didn’t have to tell me how tired it made them feel or leave you in a bad mood, because you are hungry. I found myself eating more candy, because I was trying not to get anything to eat.

I also realized I ate twice as much as I did before once I got home. I was eating beyond just being hungry. I cannot stand where I work and the people I am forced to work with  and I am sure that is why I am over eating.

I don’t know or like the person I see looking back at me through the mirror.  I don’t recall how I got here, but I am working on bringing back the person I used to be. I know I have to take one step at a time before I can see her once again.

I am working on being a better me both mind and body. I am already setting my dreams free by writing and creating new crochet projects and I am happy. Life is way too short to do anything less.

Bye IV Now, LD*