Taking steps to be a better me.   I am done doing what is so-called best for me. I am working paycheck to paycheck without any benefits or a chance of improving myself on my job.

A job where my manager is trying to get me to either quit or push me into a hospital bed? I don’t care for either of those choices and I’m done with this kind of life.

It is beyond time I step out of what  so many people have called a normal life. You walk a straight line, go to work, pay the bills and give your loved ones a kiss, but where is the life in that?

I have been wanting to start my own website for a good while now. I was unsure of how to go about doing it and  asked someone to help me get started. I now know they were just trying to be nice, when they said they would build it for me.  I wish it had taken me over 4 months to realize that they were just being nice.

 Okay, I was going to sign up for school, but thought I would take a chance on another person to ask. I had to stop and think. If you want help with something specific, you need to make sure you are talking to the right person. I have always known of someone who knew about the computer world and could help or at least point me into the right direction.  

One of his suggestions was to be a copywriter or at least have an idea on what they do?   I’m like I don’t want to be a copywriter, so why do I need to know what copywriters do? Oh well, I am not working on something new, so  I took his advice.

It may have taken me a little over two weeks to complete this course,   but I’m glad I did. I had just thought having a website was all I needed? That was NOT the right answer. I learned a lot from Neville Medhora, https://kopywritingkourse.com/

I ended up with 15 handwritten pages of notes and 5 copied to my doc to  practice on and I am actually thinking on another line of work. Naw, just another way to help improve my writing, and to grow with words.

I don’t want to turn my writing into another day to day job. Then again I can choose whom I work for and what I am helping sell. Now there is another way to look at this as a potential job?

I am also back to working on my book. I didn’t want to edit it myself, but the cost of letting someone else do it, is a WOW amount of money I just do not have, but I am going to set it free. It will be 50,000 words and no more than 250 pages.  I am at a little over 33,000 words and not close to the end and it seems the more I cut – the more words are still there…

I am working chapter to chapter and one day it will be right. I am going to keep learning on how I can improve my writing, so when I do get my website up and running it will be at the best as I can make it. I know I want it to be different, but I am NOT the one to play follow the leader. I will do things my way (just like Usher – I do believe he had a song that said those two words “My Way” in it) and I will be happy.

I believe if you are “Happy” it shows in your work, your expression, and will make others enjoy that same feeling as well. I am taking a stand and will be free to be me!!!

 Bye IV Now, LD*                                                                                                                                                                                             

Now if you are ready when you hear the sound of the horn, pipe, lyre, trigon, harp, bagpipe, and every kind of music, to fall down and worship the image that I have made, well and good. But if you do not worship, you shall immediately be cast into a burning fiery furnace. And who is the god who will deliver you out of my hands?”

Daniel 3:15 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.15.ESV

Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego answered and said to the king, “O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter.

Daniel 3:16 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.16.ESV

But if not, be it known to you, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up.”

Daniel 3:18 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.18.ESV

Because the king’s order was urgent and the furnace overheated, the flame of the fire killed those men who took up Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.

Daniel 3:22 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.22.ESV

Then King Nebuchadnezzar was astonished and rose up in haste. He declared to his counselors, “Did we not cast three men bound into the fire?” They answered and said to the king, “True, O king.”

Daniel 3:24 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.24.ESV

He answered and said, “But I see four men unbound, walking in the midst of the fire, and they are not hurt; and the appearance of the fourth is like a son of the gods.”

Daniel 3:25 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.3.25.ESV

Then the king commanded, and Daniel was brought and cast into the den of lions. The king declared to Daniel, “May your God, whom you serve continually, deliver you!”

Daniel 6:16 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.6.16.ESV

Then, at break of day, the king arose and went in haste to the den of lions. As he came near to the den where Daniel was, he cried out in a tone of anguish. The king declared to Daniel, “O Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to deliver you from the lions?”

Daniel 6:19‭-‬20 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.6.19-20.ESV

Then Daniel said to the king, “O king, live forever! My God sent his angel and shut the lions’ mouths, and they have not harmed me, because I was found blameless before him; and also before you, O king, I have done no harm.”

Daniel 6:21‭-‬22 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.6.21-22.ESV

Then the king was exceedingly glad, and commanded that Daniel be taken up out of the den. So Daniel was taken up out of the den, and no kind of harm was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.

Daniel 6:23 ESV

https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.6.23.ESV

It seems no matter how hard you plan out your day. Sometimes  the  plans your dream of  have a different way of coming out.  You keep thinking positive and that is the only outcome that will keep you happy. But,  sometimes reality gets in the way of your plans.

 I had left work on Thursday afternoon feeling unsure of how long I was going to be able to work, because of unkind words. I thought I could pretend I didn’t hear those words? That didn’t help. Those words came back to hit me in the face the VERY next time I walked through the door and the next when I left in so much pain I had to catch a lyft home.

 I had a lot of mixed emotions, because I allowed the world to get into my head. 2 days later, I declared I was  just going to do my best and not think about those bad feelings.

Even though I said I was going to have a good day and I tried to believe my words.  I could not convince myself to believe the lies.  I walked through those doors every negative thought came right back to me and spelled out of my mouth and that just isn’t who I am.

3 Days Later   not only have I not calmed down, but the plans  I started  has me shaking my head.  Sometimes plans can take you to a whole new different direction.  I am going down the road I never thought I would go. Then I remembered I had forgotten to say my list:

• I forgot my prayer words.
• I forgot who I am and where I stand.
•  I forgot,  people will be people, and I cannot allow their words into my head. 

I wanted to do something different, something other than what I normally do (when I remembered),  because I know I will be walking into the lion’s den tomorrow. I cannot and will not lose my temper or my job. So I thought I needed some scriptures to go over and over.

Could not make up my mind whether I was going to remember about coming out of the fire  without a burn or coming out the Lions den unharmed? So, I kind of lifted a little bit of each one so just trying to decide which one was that going to use?

I still don’t have the answer to that one so —–    I may just keep them all of the scriptures  I listed at the start of this thought. 

I also wanted to remember a song, so I could sing throughout the day. There are a whole lot of gospel songs, with meaningful  words, but there’s too many for me to figure out which one I was going to remember. Then the problem is, I don’t know the words, but I can sing them word for word when I hear them. That is so strange. How can I know the words when I hear them, but when I try to repeat them without the artist I forget every word.

Oh well, that’s one of those questions I am not going to try to understand right now. It’s getting late and I have to get up early to go to work tomorrow. I know I’m not going to have time to fix myself a cup of coffee and I am NOT going into that place with  that lady (the general manager) without having a cup of coffee. Tomorrow will be a Starbucks morning….

Bye IV Now, LD**