I am getting closer and closer to finding an answer to my question
How I can work at home and say,
âgoodbye to my day to day job,â
But first coffee.
Bye IV Now, LD*
Coffee First
Category: Thinking Out Loud…
My Personal Time
What do you enjoy doing most in your leisure time?
If I could crochet for a few days, and then write a short story or two, and maybe end my day with a cup of coffee. That would be a great day.
Just Words
When words become more than just words they become action, and a start to something new. The sun isn’t up, no smell of strong coffee in the air but there is energy ready to start a new day.
I worked in retail for years. I enjoyed organizing tables, shelves, and walls. Turning something ordinary into something cute. I am no longer able to create in an actual store. When I walk into a store for a fresh start, the hiring manager sees a woman walking with a cane, and even though they talk with a smile. I already knew I wasn’t going to get the job.
I am on Pinterest just for fun, but what if it becomes more than just fun? I started taking notes, and I believe I am getting closer to understanding affiliate marketing. I am getting closer to creating again and a Smile.
(A few pictures of fun times)
Bye IV Now, LD*
I Know Who I Am…
People are so righteous with their judgements and cruel words dressed up in politeness. I wonder if saying these hurtful words make them feel good. I went back to staying alone in a crowd and I thought I had done a good job. I am still friendly, because I am not going to change who I am and will always say kind words before moving on. Then someone said, âyou look colorful today,â as I walked by. I half turned and said, âthank you.â I found myself frowning as I walked farther back into the church. I had on a burgundy skirt with mustard yellow, dark blue colored dots, over burgundy legging, and a mustard colored blouse. My coat was red, because it’s the only dressy coat I have. I admit the red may not have matched, but I was warm and to me thatâs all that mattered.
Matthew 7:2 NIV [2] For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. https://bible.com/bible/111/mat.7.2.NIV
I found my seat and opened my Holy Bible app. I was slowly calming down, then out of nowhere a question came to mind. Has anyone gotten a gift and you say, âthank youâ but you don’t call or text to keep repeating those words. Does that make you ungrateful?
Then that person who gave you the gift calls and berates you for over ten minutes telling you how you have no self-esteem, because you are overweight and you should be looking for a better job. Telling you the amount of the gift, going out of their way to get the perfect gift, andâŚ
In a calm voice, I cut them off by saying, âI know who I am, and I am beautiful no matter my dress size. I know I am loved and no man, woman, or child has the right to judge me. I’m glad you learned from our late pastor and you can quote the Bible, butâŚ..
I stopped talking and let my words sink in. I wasn’t surprised when that phone call ended. I don’t know if she actually understood my words, but I’m good.
1 Peter 3:3-4 NIV [3] Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. [4] Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in Godâs sight. https://bible.com/bible/111/1pe.3.3-4.NIV
Bye IV Now, LD*
Eyes Open……
How many times am I going to open a closed door, and realize my own words,
âI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEE.â
I had stopped working on this post, because I couldnât go past the words I typed, the words I thought, and the words I said out loud âI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEEâ. I thought I should add to this. Two days later I am at work, listening to my gospel music, and really starting paying attention to the words.
I’ve heard this song countless times, danced to it, and listened to it in the background sound as I moved about my day. But, yesterday it had me in tears. Kirk Franklinâs âSmileâ https://youtu.be/Z8SPwT3nQZ8?si=hqRGNGMaj3vf8lPV
I had to stop and think, am I going back to punishing the herd to be seen and playing follow the leader or am I going to put myself first.
**sidenote : Last Sunday I offered one person a ride to service, because I can have 1 person ride free with me. She asked if another person could ride with us, âno, because I don’t have extra tickets. I only work two days a week and can barely get bus tickets for myself. (Also the first thought that came to my mind was. This same person got a ride home from service, but left me there and you want me to offer her a ride?) I realized I reached out almost begging someone to be my friend.
Then I realized something else, I was going to have to stop going to my Church group, because they have upped the dues and I’m not going to put myself out to try and be in a group that really doesn’t see meâŚ.
Eyes open and holding a Smile. I know my self worth and it’s time I show it, not to people, but to myself.
Bye IV Now LD*
3am Thunder of Words 
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