So many words are jamming in my head and so many thoughts going in different directions and this overwhelming feeling of unsureness is starting to bug me.
Matthew 11:28 NIV [28] āCome to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Philippians 4:6 NIV [6] Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
Reading the Word has a way of calming me down. I am about to get into my world (working on my book) and holding onto a smile as I will be going to my first interview next week. I will keep praying and if it’s the job for me, then I will be leaving the mall with my next job.
Smile (noun) : a facial expression in which the eyes brighten and the corners of the mouth curve slightly upward and which expresses especially amusement, pleasure, approval, or sometimes scorn.
When a baby smiles, every adult gives a smile back. Is that smile, because he or she is happy or just has gas? That question will never be answered. Smiling is based on one’s feelings and maybe showing a different expression then what they are actually thinking. Example :
Happy ~ A full smile, with teeth showing
~ A full smile, without showing teeth.
~ A laughing smile
Thinking ~ one shows a smile, because their thoughts are happy, a good idea, or stopping themselves from saying some hurtful words to someone or binding their time until they can find another job.
Knowing ~ People judge you for every little thing and they believe their thoughts are true about who they think you are and you just look at them with a smile, because you know your self-worth and their opinions doesnāt matter.
I didnāt realize my smile put people off and I donāt look friendly. I normally give a half of a smile, unless I am laughing, or get caught off guard when I am smiling for myself.
Talking to the computer to type out your words. I thought that would be a good idea – until I did it.
When babies are smiling, are they smiling because they are happy Smiling shows one feeling or does it? When babies smile, are they smiling ’cause they’re happy, they’re hungry, or maybe it’s just gas?As we get older we we still smile when we’re happy. Or maybe we smile because we don’t want no one that know what we’re feeling. Smiling isn’t just.Showing teeth. Some people smile with their teeth.Some people smiled, their mouths closed ’cause they had bad teeth. Are they happy when you’re smiling? Are they thinking when they smiling or you?A smile could be for any reason, it just depends.And every, everybody’s face.Shows different emotions when they are smiling.I smell.Well it depends on what I’m thinking. If I’m just smiling cause hey.I’ll do a half smile.Enough normal for me.And that’s not what I look like. I’m not smiling to be performing. I’m not smiling just to be smiling. Sometimes I could be upset and I’ll put I’ll plaster a smile on my face.The bike might the hold back my words. Sometimes I’ll smile.That’s a quick thought, just come through my head and.Hey.And this is who I am.But a smack of me for mean anything. It’s all depends on how that person is feeling and how someone else looks at you when they see you smiling. Some people may think you’re smiling ’cause you.Let’s see, I’m gonna put this When a little kid is getting ready to do something, they’ll.Take take my niece foot for for for example.Just once you get an idea, something that she knows she’s not supposed to be doing, she’ll look up and look around. Then if she noticed someone looking at it, just she hold her head down a little bit. Then she had the smile on her face. It’s not a happy smile, it’s a interesting smile.Then I’m like, OK, what you doing? Whatever it is, don’t do it.Then you just have to laugh because a smile could either show what you what you’re feeling, show what you’re thinking, or don’t show it on.It just all depends on the person.So a smile could be more than just a smile.What’s in your smile say about you?What are you?Projecting towards the world When you smile, do you care what others think of you when you’re smiling?Does it matter?What people think about you if they see you smiling? Are you performing when you smile, or are you smiling for yourself?My question is.Why are you smiling? What makes you smile?Is it for someone else?Was it for you?Remember.A smile is more than just a smile.
It came out as one large paragraph (what you see in yellow). I didn’t feel like turning it into something that makes sense. I donāt think I will be doing that again, but at least I answered the two questions I was thinking about. Itās time for me to get back to work.
Bye IV Now, LD*
PS- I had what’s in yellow so small you couldn’t read it, but after it was copied & paste it got bigger.
~Screaming today is the day I stop being scared and start being the woman I know I can be. I am more than what people see and itās time to show the world who I am!
Philippians 4:13 NIV [13] I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Galatians 6:9 NIV [9] Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. https://bible.com/bible/111/gal.6.9.NIV
I could continue to gather more bible verses, but then I will have gotten off of track and I am so over doing that.
I will learn how to set up an Amazon Influence front store.
I will learn how to post ads on my Pinterest and blog posts (only on items I truly believe in and have personally used).
I have had thisĀ book in my head for months. I convinced myself I shouldnātĀ work on it until I got the first book I wrote out in the world, but that book got changed in a bad way. So bad that it lost me and became something I am not proud of and havenāt found the right person who can help me rectify that.
I am going to start working on my second book, and tomorrow I will get back online and do my best to figure it out..
How many times am I going to open a closed door, and realize my own words,
āI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEE.ā
I had stopped working on this post, because I couldnāt go past the words I typed, the words I thought, and the words I said out loud āI AM MORE THAN WHAT THEY SEEā. I thought I should add to this. Two days later I am at work, listening to my gospel music, and really starting paying attention to the words.
I’ve heard this song countless times, danced to it, and listened to it in the background sound as I moved about my day. But, yesterday it had me in tears. Kirk Franklinās āSmileā https://youtu.be/Z8SPwT3nQZ8?si=hqRGNGMaj3vf8lPV
I had to stop and think, am I going back to punishing the herd to be seen and playing follow the leader or am I going to put myself first.
**sidenote : Last Sunday I offered one person a ride to service, because I can have 1 person ride free with me. She asked if another person could ride with us, āno, because I don’t have extra tickets. I only work two days a week and can barely get bus tickets for myself. (Also the first thought that came to my mind was. This same person got a ride home from service, but left me there and you want me to offer her a ride?) I realized I reached out almost begging someone to be my friend.
Then I realized something else, I was going to have to stop going to my Church group, because they have upped the dues and I’m not going to put myself out to try and be in a group that really doesn’t see meā¦.
Eyes open and holding a Smile. I know my self worth and it’s time I show it, not to people, but to myself.
I spent my special day on a light shopping day, getting my favorite coffee (even though it wasnāt made right), and my favorite breakfast (brussel spouts from my mother)
My favorite anime was finally dubbed again (meaning it is in English) crocheting and enjoying my day. A special sweet treat came and I had dinner with my son. I am still smiling and feeling loved. I am blessed and happy.
I would like to Thank everyone who took time out of their day to say, āHappy Birthdayā. I am grateful and I hope everyone enjoy the rest of their weekend.
3am Thunder of Words 
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