I am surprised I let that door open and my guard down. I have been so careful, not getting too close to anyone, nor letting anyone getting close to me.
I am not going to lie, that my feelings were hurt when someone I called my friend has turned that friendship to their own gain. I guess I am going to have to start building that wall again, a little stronger, and will take longer to let the next person get closer to me.
The old me would have closed everyone out and stayed hidden away, but the new me says that’s not who I am. I will not run nor will I keep to myself. I cannot and will not be afraid to trust someone who may or may not be my friend.
I may help when there is a need, because that is what friends do. Then again if that same request is repeated over and over to a point where I am your answer to your request. I am NO LONGER A FRIEND.
It’s cool, because I am cutting myself off. Just like that Kenny Rogers song https://youtu.be/7hx4gdlfamo from the movie ‘The Gambler’ – “you have to know when to hold them, know when to fold them, and know when to walk away.” (I really should watch the video to get the words correctly and not just go by from what I remember)
It is sad that you are now a passing friend, but all in all it’s a good thing. I am not turning against you all together and one day we may talk this out and try to start over, but it all depends on you. You may not have seen your mistake or thought nothing of it.
I will wait and answer your next call and see what the outcome will be? Will we start or will we be passing friends. Passing friends are just people who exchange small talk if seen out and about and keep it moving. I cannot wait to see who you are or who you will be?
Bye IV Now, LD*