I try and I try and no matter how hard I try reality always comes to mind. Then I stop and get back into who I am and who I know I can be.
Today my reality is walking around without a doctor and there are times when my blood pressure does go up. So, lights out, sound low, air on, and relaxing at home when I can work well for me.
I also get into the Word:
Then He said to her, “Daughter, your faith [your personal trust and confidence in Me] has restored you to health; go in peace and be [permanently] healed from your suffering.”
MARK 5:34 AMP
Although this was talking about the woman with the issue of blood, but I know it will work for me too.
I am also a single and its my choice to be single. I am tired of hearing, “You need a man and maybe your pain will go away.” Its crazy for a mortal man to take away all my pain and worries. A mortal man is going to make me happy and help pay my bills. A mortal man is all I need.
I just smile and say, “I have Jesus on my side.” I am not where I want to be in life, but I am working on a better me. I am not about to stress of things I don’t have or the life people says I should have.
Its my life and if I am happy and I am Happy I’m good. I just wish people would stop trying to live my life for me. Stop telling me what I can and cannot do, for they may know my name, but they really don’t know who I am.
I am “Lee” and proud to be me. I will not change who I am for anyone and if a Real man cross my path and see me, who knows what that outcome will be?