Bathing in the sunshine as a Smile across my face. And, I cannot be ever so grateful that I am LOVED and I know where I stand. God is so GOOD.
There was a time when I would have looked up the perfect bible quote right here, but – (my mind stopped thinking about what I was going to say, because now I want to add in something based on what I am feeling right now).
Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:18 NLT. https://bible.com/bible/116/1th.5.18.NLT
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. Psalms 139:14 NLT bible.com/bible/116/psa.139.14.NLT
If you were to look at me, you would think I am in trouble, because I am unemployed and no money coming in. The apartment that I am living with my family maybe lost, because it’s based on me having a job to pay the rent. Management says I have a little over 60 days to have a job.
People are looking at me like why aren’t you working as if it is easy to find a job when you don’t have a car to get to the jobs you are being offered or a piece of paper saying you can do the job that you have been doing for years.
Everyone has to put in their two cents. I have family members who act like this is my fault, but they are watching me, listening to my words after one interview after the other, and know I am trying to get out of this mess. (to get that job they think I should of had two months ago)
They are wondering why I am smiling and not feeling down and out. They have no idea of who I am and who I will be. My strength doesn’t come from a man made job, but the ability to see beyond that and come through with what I need to to live in this world on my terms. Yes, there was a time when I work paycheck to paycheck never getting ahead and at times falling back, because those same paychecks kept on getting smaller and smaller. When is enough ENOUGH?
Here & Now is my time. I may only have 12 articles for my website, but that is still good. I am stepping out and believing in “ME” and I can careless if no one else feels the same.
You cannot take that step for me and I cannot take it for you. I am going to stand and keep on Smiling, because one day when those who didn’t see my Smile will.
I am getting ready to go back in time, because I am remembering part of a song from “TLC” as well as one from “Ms. Mary J. Blige” something about your friends keeping the ones you came in with. (sorry I do not have time to look up those songs, but I got the artist name right and you can take that step in looking it up if you want)
I am now laughing, because I hadn’t planned on writing anything else today, but I am no longer going to stop a thought again.
Bye IV Now, LD*