I just got on the wrong bus. I wished I remembered less than a minute ago before I paid my fair. I was trying to get out of paying $2.20 again. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but when you are not working and there’s no money coming in two dollars and twenty cents is a lot.

I didn’t do my 30min walk this morning, because I was going to walk  to another bus stop that was almost a mile away. I could have used that transfer on that bus coming back from the library back home without paying a second time.

Then again if I could have figure out how to correct my resume (a friend was so kind to redo) I wouldn’t have to go out anyway. Then again, I still needed to go to the store, because one can’t make garlic and ginger chicken without ginger. (I am rereading my words and I just realized I didn’t put the ginger in my marinating sauce. I added it to my veggie melody. It worked better, because I jazzed up that nasty brown rice. It was good).

Once again I had to change my plans. MY coffee creamer was on sale and there was no way I was walking out of the grocery store without buying it. Then as I was walking towards the produce section I noticed laundry soap at the corner of my eye and that was one of three items I had went into the store to get.

Three bags later, ( to more than I thought I was going to need) although I was able to combine them into two bags, but that didn’t take away the bags wieght. Oh well the post office could wait, but a new resume couldn’t.

 I am so grateful I got a good Liberian, because she helped me turning a creative resume to a business resume. A friend was nice to help improve, and I did keep most of her work, but it now reads as if it is talking about me.

I wanted to eat as soon as I got through the door. No, I told myself, and did what had to be done. 

1. Grocery put away
2. Chicken out of the refrigerator (thankful if was fully thawed out) seasoned and getting better until I am ready to cook it.
3. Dishes washed. (I like to clean as cook, because doing one or two at a time is better than doing more)
4. An oven baked cheese sandwich is about ready to be enjoyed, so –

                    Bye IV Now, LD

So many thoughts are going through my mind. There isn’t enough time to write down each thought, each story, or even a poem. It is even harder to stay focused when your tummy is yelling at you, because it’s been over ten hours since you last ate. If that wasn’t bad enough, I can feel a slight pain in my head because I NEED coffee. 

UGH, I just remembered I only have enough eggs for one day. So now I am thinking what am I going to eat, because I cannot go to the store today. Times like this I wish I had a car.

Time to stop at 9:19am ~~~ It is now 12:23pm

Okay I got a little side tracked after I finished my coffee. Well, who wouldn’t when the ladies from “The Real” is on your television screen? The show speaks for itself, because Mrs. Adrienne Houghton had said something and the newest lady in the group Ms. Amanda Seales had a look on her face that was totally real and there was no tig on her part. I am laughing as did Ms. Jeannie Mai did. They were talking about men cheating and “No” I am going going beyond that. I do not know if today show Wednesday  January 8, 2020 is online. (pausing to look) too much work and I have less than an hour to finish this and at least start on another written thought for my website. 

Although my website hasn’t been built yet, but what does that matter. I didn’t want to only have pictures and an idea of what was coming. I will have a few stories already written. I plan on selling my crochet projects and talking about  my craft and just being myself.

I had looked to other websites where you could sell your items or even have an online retail shop and sell other items alongside your items. I know this is a side job and the idea is to make money, but I will NOT turn myself into a money object. I just want to be free to be me and if I can (And I WILL) have a little extra on the side that will be a bonus.

I also know I am still unemployed and was holding out for my true job. I place where I could be myself, but after more than three months I am going to have to change that thought, because bills have to be paid. I do have a family as well as myself to support. That is one of the main reasons why I am going to do my website my way.

It is now  1 o’clock so  I had better wrap this up, because I not only wanted to work on my next written project. I am still working on a cross stitch Christmas gift. I may not be able to finish it today, but every stitch counts. I am pushing for it to be done by the end of this week. That is my goal. I can work on my baby blanket on the ride to service and since I will be early I’ll still be able to work on it as I clear my mind of things I need to do and things I want to do. For my going to service is the best place for me to do that and I am done talking (typing) for now..
             Bye IV Now, LD*

P.S ~ I just decided to not use “The End” any more, when I am just writing a thought, but will use it if my words are a story or a poem. Then again, I may just keep it on everything only time will tell…….

 

 

When you are looking for something important you have a tendency of pulling everything out of every box, bag, and if you are lucky you find it before you open the closet door. You can no longer see your floor,but that doesn’t stop you from clearing out your closet thinking maybe you packed it. One would think you would start from the bottom, not I started from the top shelve. I started from one side to another until I reach then end of the top shelve.

Taking a deep breath and with a frustrated sound before you turned and looking at your mess. You think, “I haven’t found it, I am going to just forget about it, and move on.” You leave the room just to get some fresh air and think about putting your room back in order. 

Music being played you try to focus on just one area at a time, but you can’t stop thinking about your forgotten checkbook, because you have to pay a bill. Okay, I’ll just get a money order, and then you go back to the closest. I am not going to spend a dollar on a money order, because I already spent more than that on those money orders.

An hour has passed and every suitcase and every bag that was on the bottom of your closest was now in your room. You want to cry, because what was lost was still lost. You are too upset to cry over the mess and so over it.

Had to actually go outside and let the cool air somewhat calm me down and stop thinking about the mess.  I had my craft bag, pulling my playlist off of my youtube page as I prepared for a true break. I like to crochet and it’s even better when it’s a fun project and not a rush project. It doesn’t matter if it’s paid or as a gift, it’s a time limit. I don’t know anyone who liked taking a timed test? If its a gift okay, it could be late, but I will try to get it to them at the time of their special event.

Oh well, back to my room, and started getting it back in order. UGH! Forty Five minutes later in a small box you barely looked at as you started your little trash party, you find your lost checkbook, and you are feeling so far out there. The question that comes to mind, “how come I didn’t see this before this mess?”  Another what if moment……

                                         The

                                            End!!!

 

Dear James,

        It’s a New Year a time to leave the past behind and onto better things. Take the hint. I haven’t answered any text, phone calls, and you trying to  befriend me on Facebook. 

I have told you why we can no longer be friends and maybe if you apologized? I am making a face, because you don’t feel you have said anything wrong.

I need encouraging people by my side as I do the same. We should be building each other up and not holding you down.

I wonder What is it going to take for you to understand we can NO LONGER talk in any form. You have to let go and move on. Life is too short for holding onto past mistakes.

I already prayed for you. I have given you suggestions on how you can do the same, but you would rather complain than try to work it out. I am so over it. I am just trying to understand why you can’t or won’t move forward. It isn’t healthy nor is a right.                   

Get a cup of HoT lemonade, think about what’s really important to you, and Please move on. 

 

 

I got up with a purpose today as I do every day. I forgot my shield as I got onto my church bus today. There is one person who likes to be so wholly to and over me I just have to smile at her.   

The first set of words didn’t sound like an insult or underhanded, but after I thought about it – it was.             

I said, “Good – Morning” as I was getting on the bus and apologized for not being outside, because I was playing a game.

Driver : (joking) Lisa aren’t you too old to be playing computer games?             Me      : (laughing) Nope.                       Lady   : Well, did you read the Word today.                                                           Me      : I do read the Word all the time. Lady   : That’s not what I asked.            Me      : I’m good my God knows me and my faith.

She started talking about the book of Jeremiah and I believed I gave a low growl and then she said:

Lady: “Your pink shirt now matches your jacket.”                                               Me   : “I am always going to match my coat, because it’s pink.” (Pink is now my favorite color, which she doesn’t like, and thinks it’s childish).

On a side note, I wouldn’t have had the coat if a friend hadn’t had given it to me as a Birthday present. I am blessed to have a few good friends, because she knew I didn’t have a coat. 

I tried to stop thinking about the ride to service once I got to my seat.  I decided to set it free and move on. I have been wanting to move to the back of the bus to be out of voice range, but I tell myself I am Not going to let her get to me. It has been awhile, and the very day I let my guard down, she got me.

Once again my Pastor had a special message just for me. Well not really, but that’s how I felt. One has to know Who is within and be ready to win your battle. 

“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be dismayed because of the king of Assyria, nor because of all the army that is with him; for the One with us is greater than the one with him. With him there is only an arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles.” And the people relied on the words of Hezekiah king of Judah.

2 Chronicles 32:7‭-‬8 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/2ch.32.7-8.AMP

 

And the Lord sent an angel who destroyed every brave warrior, commander, and officer in the camp of the king of Assyria. So the king returned to his own land in shame. And when he entered the house (temple) of his god, some of his own children killed him there with the sword.

2 Chronicles 32:21 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/2ch.32.21.AMP

 

I know if I fight outside of the Kingdom I will not win, but I know I am not alone. The Pastor wanted to pray for everyone who needed to build up that fire and I stepped away from my seat to do just that, but I heard “You already won,” and I stepped back closer to my seat.  All I could do is praise Him, because I knew this. I know who I am and who lives on the inside of me.

I am going to end with one last thought and then I am going to relax for the rest of the day.

Finally, believers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable and worthy of respect, whatever is right and confirmed by God’s word, whatever is pure and wholesome, whatever is lovely and brings peace, whatever is admirable and of good repute; if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think continually on these things [center your mind on them, and implant them in your heart].

Philippians 4:8 AMP

https://bible.com/bible/1588/php.4.8.AMP

 

             The End!!!