Last Good-Bye

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Dear James,

 

I have told part of our story to family and other friends and all have agreed with me. No worries I didn’t talk about personal information, because that would be wrong. My words were explaining how long we have been friends and a part of our relationship.

 

We were young when we started as pen pals. It was fun just to talk about what we were going through or places we wanted to go. Since we were friends, we talked about our love life, offer advice, and an ears just to listen. From good times and bad times.

 

One may think, because if you have a friend for over twenty years and it will never end. The problem with that thinking is? It’s wrong. If each person is on the same level okay, but life gets in the way. 

 

I knew of Jesus, but I didn’t know Him at all. I came to a low point in my life and couldn’t understand how come I couldn’t die. I tried, but I failed. My eyes were slowly opening when a friend (who had no idea if my death wish) had taken me to her church. I heard the Word a little more clearly and wanted to learn more.

 

I was reborn into a new person with a new outlook on life. I am not an angel, but I am way better than the person I used to be. What I am saying isn’t new, because we had this conversation before. Then again you only hear what you want to hear.

 

I went against my first thought about letting you go and moving on without you in my life. Then I began to think, we have been friends for so long, why not give you another chance.

 

I no longer go places you go and have a different outlook on the world. I may not want to see the world, but there are a lot of beautiful places and a world of history I want to learn about.  I don’t want to work paycheck to paycheck and not be able to pay my bills. I am worthy of so much more.

 

I wonder why you don’t feel the same for yourself. I listen to you complain about your job, people around you, and how you don’t want to change. If you don’t change you can’t grow. 

 

A week or so after countless unanswered replies to text messages and phone calls. I answered the phone call, and once again you blew me off. I got no apologies or a second thought to your careless words. I find it funny that you are trying to talk to me on Facebook, not.

 

I am going to keep my first thought and move on. I wish you well and hope you move on VERY soon, because your calls and text messages are starting to bug me. I have told you I have moved on, shown you I have moved on by not talking to you in any form, so hopefully this is our last “Good-Bye”.

 

                       The

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Something Sweet….

A Life’s RECIPE
Something Sweet!!!

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Ingredients

  • Truthful and Meaningful words.
  • No looking back and Willing to change.
  • Strength and Knowing your worth.
  • Letting go and Moving forward.
  • Understanding who you are TODAY and Not who you WERE Y.E.S.T.E.R.D.A.Y.

Preparation

  1. I wrote everything down from the good to the bad. I made a list of who I was, how I felt towards people, and what I wanted out of life. My list was long and unfocus. It took a few hours, days, years, but I did go back. I really read what I had written and my second list  was how to make my words become reality.
  2. I gave up on life years ago and played followed the leader. I was a person without a heart. I allowed hurtful people to control my life. It didn’t matter who they were family who you thought would care, to people who call themselves your friend, or someone who didn’t even know your name. I talked and acted like the world, because I didn’t know who I was. Walking through life with your eyes and heart closed is not really living. I knew I had to change or I was going to die.
  3. I was strong and I was ready to prove it to myself and  everyone.
  4. Once my eyes were open and my mind was cleared I was a new person. I lost a few friends because they didn’t like who I was and I wasn’t going back to that person I was yesterday.  
  5. I have been reborn in Christ. I have a new outlook on my life and how I choose to live my life. I have some friends who are new and someI have known for awhile. They all know I will not go to the same places they go to, I don’t agree with their lifestyle, and I don’t talk like the world. I am not looking down on them, because I am not above nor am I beneath anyone. I will encourage you, give you strength when needed, and Love on you wholeheartedly. I expect no less from family or friends. I CANNOT and WILL NOT allow anyone in my life who doesn’t understand this, because WORDS are hurtful. I am so much more and I am NOT lonely where I would allow anyone to treat me less than how I treat them I am LOVED and I LOVE myself just as strong as Jesus LOVES ME!!!

Tips

 

We are all different and have a different way of looking at the world. I decided I wanted more. I saw love,  I saw the world, and I knew that if I wanted to experience any of those feelings and see the world. I would have to change. My change came when  the name Jesus, became more than just a name. 

 

It’s up to you how you walk your path. I cannot do it for you. Some have asked why and how I changed. Simple, I started reading the Bible. I even sent a bible app that I read to a friend or two. I learn something new every time I hope my book or go to the app.  You can either go to the back of your book or type in your feeling and there is something that will help you. One can either accept me as I am today or they can say “goodbye” and move forward. My feelings will not be hurt and I hope they will feel the same. Life is too short to be worried if someone likes or dislikes you. You owe your life to No mortal man or women. Be honest and live your life the Best you can, because you are the only one who can make that happen.

 

                                            The End!

 

 

Good-Bye James

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Dear James,

 

I wonder if you can tell I have been ignoring you? I wonder if you think I am just busy?  I have read a few of the text that was sent, but refuse to answer the phone. I do recall answering a text informing you I was out with my son. I figured that would be the end of that, but your response was for me to text at the end of my day.

 

There is a part of me who wants to be honest and explain why I have to let you go. Then as always you hear what you want to ear and block out the truth.

 

Two worlds cannot stand as one you know the name Jesus, but you don’t know His strength. You don’t understand how words are POWERFUL.  MY faith will remain strong and if that means letting go of everything and everyone it’s done. My past is in my past and I am moving forward. I will not be like Lot’s wife and look back. 

                  

And the men said unto Lot, Hast thou here any besides? son in law, and thy sons, and thy daughters, and whatsoever thou hast in the city, bring them out of this place:  For we will destroy this place, because the cry of them is waxen great before the face of the Lord ; and the Lord hath sent us to destroy it.

Genesis 19:12‭-‬13 KJV

https://bible.com/bible/1/gen.19.12-13.KJV

 

The Angels gave a warning. Lot took their words as the truth and did his best to get his family out, but those who didn’t live with him, wouldn’t listen, and they died. I don’t know if his wife didn’t believe or just couldn’t let go of the past and that’s why she looked back when warned not to.

 

We can either learn from our past and work hard to get free of past hurts, so we could enjoy our life to its fullest. True we won’t forget, but we don’t have to relive it either.

 

I had to read part of the book of Genesis and I got upset, because I agree that Lot should protect the Angels, but to sacrifice his daughters. Women should be protected, but we (I am a woman, so I am speaking for myself) are sometimes seen as less than dirt.

 

And said, I pray you, brethren, do not so wickedly.  Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man; let me, I pray you, bring them out unto you, and do ye to them as is good in your eyes: only unto these men do nothing; for therefore came they under the shadow of my roof.

Genesis 19:7‭-‬8 KJV

https://bible.com/bible/1/gen.19.7-8.KJV

 

Oops I once again got off of my subject. I have been telling you for years that you can find answers in the Bible. The Bible may word it differently, but what’s going on today isn’t new and in black and white you can find the answer to be free.

 

It is a battle to walk with God, but it’s a battle worth fighting for. I don’t understand how others can’t see His strength, His love, His wisdom, and He gives this and much more for free.

 

You knew I haven’t had a job in over a month and when I not only found an off for a good paying job. You know what you said, “you know you aren’t going to get it.” You laughed at your joke as I got upset. You apologized, but it wasn’t from the heart. Two days later. I thought my interview went well, but I didn’t get the job.

 

We didn’t talk for a few days and like always I accept your apology and overlook your hurtful words. Then you so call joked that I “don’t get sick,” I am still sick. This may all just be condensant and I shouldn’t end a 20 year friendship for this?

 

If we aren’t building each other up and encouraging the other to be more or at least better than what they are today, then what’s the point? You want to cry to me and poor all your problems (like I don’t have any of my own) and not listen to any of my subjects. I have told you the truth, but you want to do it your way.

 

I am shaking my head, because since you want to do it your way l. Why are you coming to me? When you joked about me giving you money and once again laughing it off. I can no longer close my eyes to your hurtful words. I know who I am and where I stand and it’s time to be free of you.

 

You brushed the Bible and Jesus aside everytime I talk about them. I tried to help clear your mind, but that wall gets stronger. You don’t understand me praying for you won’t do you any good, because without faith – faith cannot work. I either stay and allow you to cloud my mind or let go and be free. 

I like to think about trees. They change all the time, but their roots remain in one place. They grow stronger with each passing year and I want to do the same. I want to be stronger and help others be just as strong. I do pray for your well being and maybe you will understand who I am today for the girl you knew years ago is dead and a new woman has been reborn.

“Good – Bye” my old friend. 

 

Lisa

An Old, but Fun Game.

 

 

It is hard to believe that winter is coming 

with the sun so bright 

and birds singing in my ear.

 At least the air brings a cool breeze

 and kids are still in school.

True, my little one isn’t little,

and no longer in school.

It is nice to listen to the sound

of nature

then the sound 

of kids yelling.

I don’t recall yelling as child?

Then again kids today aren’t

playing the same games

I played years ago.

True there may not 

be enough room for

stick ball

or a wall for

handball,

with three or more

a good game of

double dutch 

can be played.

One day

I can show

these young one

how to have

Fun..

 

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Two Kids or One?

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I was thinking about my friend who just had another child and how well her oldest child was handling being a big sister. I almost imagine the conversation she had with her daughter.

I decided I wanted to have one child and a boy at that. I lost my first child six years before I was told I was expecting my son. I had given up, but God is so good. 

The very day I got my happy news I said I was having a boy and I didn’t care what I was being told. It may have taken a few weeks to come up with a name, because I wanted a strong name for my angel. I actually had two to choose and years later I told him the other choice. He said his name was the best.

I always made sure he had things to do and between family and friends. I say he was good at not having a brother or sister.

I read “Little Miss, Big Sis,” by Amy Krouse & Peter H. Reynolds.” ~ It had pictures of a young girl knowing and understanding she was going to be a big sister. Then wait until that day finally came and how she handled each stage. In the end it showed how big sis & little brother loved each other. The End…

I also read “I Am a Big Sister!,” by Caroline Jayne Church ~ This book starts with the new arrival and the big sister happy. She happily help from bringing baby wipes, playing silly games, and knowing she will be a good big sister forever.  The End….

I watch others with two or more kids. More power to them. I kinda of like having another child without the potty training stage, but since that would never happen. It is a good thing I have only one child. Well, he is now a growing young man now, and I am blessed.

 

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