Heart Rate is a little fast as I slowly control my breathing. I admit I sometimes overlook the obvious. Then once I have time to actually think about what I said as well as what was said, I am smiling at my foolishness.

I read (NIV) 1st Samuel Ch 15:1-34 and I couldn’t understand why Saul didn’t do as God had told him to do?  Why did he only do half of what was told and believe that was okay?

I am no saint, but I do follow man made laws as well as the Good book (The Bible). I am honest and sometimes I have to hold my words back to not hurt someone’s feeling. I will say what I have to and stop pushing my point. I only wish others would feel the same.

I allowed self-doubt to enter my mind and my spirit and had me thinking about not moving forward. I am now YELLING satan GET UNDER MY FEET, BECAUSE JESUS IS GUIDING MY FEET. Fear was trying to get a hold of my spirit. So grateful for the Word. True I may have read 1st Sam last night and I just got a hold of what I read. I did say I was a little slow sometimes.

It is a little scary stepping out on a different plan, but if you don’t how can you improve your life. I also know this isn’t my true job, but it will get me closer to it. 

Why do people want to hold you down? They know you are strangling and keep wishing you well. Then once you get closer to opening that door, they are pulling you back? More questions without answers. Then again I might not like the answer if I look a little closer.

(Laughing) I am not going to worry about anyone or anything that tries to hold me down. I am about to get me a cup or two of coffee and then start working on my book. Yes, I am writing another series of books and can’t wait to get into my world. Never let anyone take your joy….

 

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Once again I find myself laughing at what people are saying to me and I am amazed. I was told the water you drink today, will not be released until tomorrow, and you should keep drinking half your body weight each day.

I agree water is good for everyone to drink every day. When I am at home. I will drink more water, and it’s strange, because an hour or so I am closing the bathroom door. I don’t know of any place one can work and stay in the bathroom more than they  are working without a medical note.

So, that theory of what you drink today comes out tomorrow, I don’t buy it, nor does drinking a lot while I am working, but I am drinking more water then I use to. All in all I am good.

One can laugh as you listen to the foolishness. In order for you to walk off your extra pounds, you have to be outside, or in a gym. There was a time when I would go to the mall an hour before it opened, and enjoyed comfortable walking inside cool air. Today I walk around my apartment and do a low impact workout. 

I must be doing something right, because I am a better me. I may not have reached my goal yet and I know that’s a good thing. The faster you lose it, the faster those pounds return, and I’m not going for that. I pound or two works great for me.                           

Today I added an upper body workout and my arms are yelling at me. The phrase “no pain, no gain” comes to mind and I must have done it right.

Walking also helps clear your mind. I am working, but working 13 hours doesn’t feel like work at the end of the week. Looking for a better job is longer and without pay. You get a few hopeful leads, but have to turn them down. Then when you finally get something you believe you could do and you share that joy, only to be shot down.

Yes, your so called friends know you are struggling to keep a roof over your families head, food in their rummies, and everyday needs. They never offered a helping hand and you never asked. I made it through, but sometimes a person get tired of barley making it through.

I can laugh through their careless words, because I put my faith in God’s Words and not the everyday men and women. One can listen to another person’s point of view, but in the end obe has to do what’s best for them.

I still say people are funny and who knows they may be feeling the same way about me. It’s time to take a step out into the unknown and be free to be me:  The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?Psalms 27:1 NLT 

https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.27.1.NLT

See I am still Smiling 😃

 

THE END!!!

Still keeping my words and feeling good by it. I’ve been working on my book, only stopped, because the computer isn’t agreeing with me. I know I just need to type a little slow, but I still say its the computers fault haha.

I”ve been reading about forgiveness.

Mark 11:25‭-‬26 KJV And when ye stand praying, forgive, if ye have ought against any: that your Father also which is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses. But if ye do not forgive, neither will your Father which is in heaven forgive your trespasses.

So , with these words I followed through and forgave tbe person (a co-worker) who for some strange reason wasn’t talking to me. I also apologize and send these words to her. I am not looking for a respond. Good or bad I forgave and let go.

Time to get back to working on my panthers blanket. I can also cross personal writing off of my list with this blog. I just finish reading a book, so I’ll get a book review soon.

Its now time to End!