Today was the first time I slept past 8am and was not sick. I guess the rain outside was soothing. I have heard that rain helps you sleep. I like to watch the rain, so I normally don’t sleep through it. 

Well as long as it’s not a storm I enjoy the rain. I find it relaxing. It’s like washing away all that’s dirty in the air, and giving life to nature’s beauty. The trees clean our air, the flowers allow bees to make honey, and plants keep us from going hungry. 

It doesn’t matter if you are a woman, man, child, and an animal. We all need to drink water. I know for me it’s hard to do, because it doesn’t have a taste. I may not drink as much as my doctor or my child (who is now 21) likes me too, but some water is better than none.

Times like this morning I wish I had a book in hand to read, but I have read all of the books I have. There are times when I can read a book over, but then there are times as soon as I read a few pages I recall the whole book. That isn’t a good book to read again.

I had thought getting up late was going to make me lazy, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize my body needed the rest. I watched a movie as I worked on a cross stitch project all before my talk show came on. 

I am NOT going to miss the ladies of “The Real” talk show go without watching it. I enjoyed a cup of coffee or two as someone had me laughing. It may have started off on a sad note, because we are living in a sad time right now, but some are trying to stay positive and encourage others to not focus on the bad things.

I also worked on my rainbow blanket and my time was well spent. The sun came out and I did go for a short walk and as I look out the window I am thinking about going out again. I may not be going too far, but some fresh air is better than none.

 I have had a productive day so far. It is a little after 3pm and I am surprised  I am not hungry. There was a time when I would just eat whether I was hungry or not. If you look at the clock, it says it’s past lunch time, and you need to eat.

I remember the food chart I saw in school years ago  and said something about eating three meals per day. I agree we all need to eat, but why eat when you are not hungry? 

I am good with my rosemary popcorn and water for now. I’ll just eat a big dinner at an earlier time. I have no idea what that will be, but that question will be answered in a few hours from now.

I have been looking for a DVD for a few days and I still haven’t found it. I went through my dvd’s and found that I had two copies of other movies (the extra ones will be donated to the library as soon as it’s open) but not the one I am looking at.

I really want to  work on my rainbow blanket as I watch Frozen  and Frozen 2 back to back. I watched Frozen 2 about a month ago and today I thought it would be cool to watch them back to back as I work on my gift. I know it’s looking at me as I overlook it. I bet I will put my DVD back  after I watch it. This will be my last time looking for a DVD…..

Yeah I found what was lost and now I am once again going to do something different.  I already finished an article for my website and started this one for my blog, so I am doing good, and tomorrow I will finish this (hopefully) and go on from there. 

I kind of like having a lot of things to keep me busy throughout these long days. Then again my mind doesn’t focus on one thing for too long anyway. Some may think I am not getting anything done, but time management is a cool thing. One has to know what their limits are and how to make time work for them. You may not understand my order and that’s cool, because you are not me. I am doing things my way, because I like being “Me”…..

(7:21am) Another day and I almost missed my time to walk as I thought out my day. I may have sat in my room for a few minutes looking at the tv that wasn’t turned into a television show, but a gospel music channel. I had to shake my head and get up, because if I could sit and think. I can walk and think as well.

I got my first 30min walk in for today. I am going to push for nothing less than 5 more times. It may not be much, but a little movement has to count. I am also adding a low impact chair workout to this routine. I may not lose those extra pounds I have picked up since being locked up. I am working on not adding to them.

The sun is out and it looks like it’s going to be a nice day. The thing is I don’t feel like doing my hair right now, so I am just going to have to enjoy the sight of a beautiful day, and not be out in it. Then again it is still early and I haven’t yet had my coffee.

I was going to end this here, but I have an unclear thought I wanted to add. Don’t you hate when you lose your train of thoughts and no matter how hard you try to recall that thought. It just seems like it’s gone for good. Like when you are looking for something and you cannot find it as soon as you stop looking for it, it was so close and your mind just overlooked it? That is another unanswered question of how that happens?

The beauty of outside is slowly fading, because my eyes really want to close. I don’t have the energy to go no father then my bed and don’t like this feeling. Think I will go out on the patio and work on my rainbow blanket and stop thinking so much. I am putting way too much time in planning my day. 

There is a saying “What may come – comes?” I am at a loss at the real saying, and I am wrong. I am going to end this here and more on to a different thought. No sense trying to add on when this thought is done.. 

 

Bye IV Now, LD*

Today was the first time I slept past 8am and was not sick. I guess the rain outside was soothing. I have heard that rain helps you sleep. I like to watch the rain, so I normally don’t sleep through it. 

Well as long as it’s not a storm I enjoy the rain. I find it relaxing. It’s like washing away all that’s dirty in the air, and giving life to nature’s beauty. The trees clean our air, the flowers allow bees to make honey, and plants keep us from going hungry. 

It doesn’t matter if you are a woman, man, child, and an animal. We all need to drink water. I know for me it’s hard to do, because it doesn’t have a taste. I may not drink as much as my doctor or my child (who is now 21) likes me too, but some water is better than none.

Times like this morning I wish I had a book in hand to read, but I have read all of the books I have. There are times when I can read a book over, but then there are times as soon as I read a few pages I recall the whole book. That isn’t a good book to read again.

I had thought getting up late was going to make me lazy, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize my body needed the rest. I watched a movie as I worked on a cross stitch project all before my talk show came on. 

I am NOT going to miss the ladies of “The Real” talk show go without watching it. I enjoyed a cup of coffee or two as someone had me laughing. It may have started off on a sad note, because we are living in a sad time right now, but some are trying to stay positive and encourage others to not focus on the bad things.

I also worked on my rainbow blanket and my time was well spent. The sun came out and I did go for a short walk and as I look out the window I am thinking about going out again. I may not be going too far, but some fresh air is better than none.

I have had a productive day so far. It is a little after 3pm and I am surprised  I am not hungry. There was a time when I would just eat whether I was hungry or not. If you look at the clock, it says it’s past lunch time, and you need to eat.

I remember the food chart I saw in school years ago  and said something about eating three meals per day. I agree we all need to eat, but why eat when you are not hungry? 

I am good with my rosemary popcorn and water for now. I’ll just eat a big dinner at an earlier time. I have no idea what that will be, but that question will be answered in a few hours from now.

I have been looking for a DVD for a few days and I still haven’t found it. I went through my dvd’s and found that I had two copies of other movies (the extra ones will be donated to the library as soon as it’s open) but not the one I am looking at.

I really want to  work on my rainbow blanket as I watch Frozen  and Frozen 2 back to back. I watched Frozen 2 about a month ago and today I thought it would be cool to watch them back to back as I work on my gift. I know it’s looking at me as I overlook it. I bet I will put my DVD back  after I watch it. This will be my last time looking for a DVD…..

Yeah I found what was lost and now I am once again going to do something different.  I already finished an article for my website and started this one for my blog, so I am doing good, and tomorrow I will finish this (hopefully) and go on from there. 

I kind of like having a lot of things to keep me busy throughout these long days. Then again my mind doesn’t focus on one thing for too long anyway. Some may think I am not getting anything done, but time management is a cool thing. One has to know what their limits are and how to make time work for them. You may not understand my order and that’s cool, because you are not me. I am doing things my way, because I like being “Me”…..

(7:21am) Another day and I almost missed my time to walk as I thought out my day. I may have sat in my room for a few minutes looking at the tv that wasn’t turned into a television show, but a gospel music channel. I had to shake my head and get up, because if I could sit and think. I can walk and think as well.

I got my first 30min walk in for today. I am going to push for nothing less than 5 more times. It may not be much, but a little movement has to count. I am also adding a low impact chair workout to this routine. I may not lose those extra pounds I have picked up since being locked up. I am working on not adding to them.

The sun is out and it looks like it’s going to be a nice day. The thing is I don’t feel like doing my hair right now, so I am just going to have to enjoy the sight of a beautiful day, and not be out in it. Then again it is still early and I haven’t yet had my coffee.

I was going to end this here, but I have an unclear thought I wanted to add. Don’t you hate when you lose your train of thoughts and no matter how hard you try to recall that thought. It just seems like it’s gone for good. Like when you are looking for something and you cannot find it as soon as you stop looking for it, it was so close and your mind just overlooked it? That is another unanswered question of how that happens?

The beauty of outside is slowly fading, because my eyes really want to close. I don’t have the energy to go no father then my bed and don’t like this feeling. Think I will go out on the patio and work on my rainbow blanket and stop thinking so much. I am putting way too much time in planning my day. 

There is a saying “What may come – comes?” I am at a loss at the real saying, and I am wrong. I am going to end this here and more on to a different thought. No sense trying to add on when this thought is done.. 

 

Bye IV Now, LD*

 

How can a young person stay pure? By obeying your word. I have tried hard to find you— don’t let me wander from your commands. I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.

Psalms 119:9‭-‬11 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.119.9-11.NLT

I liked the question and answer  in verse 9: “How can a young person stay pure? By obeying your word.” That seemed like it was a direct and to the point answer, as I sit in this cafe enjoying the smell of coffee is making me think of another question? Is there any other example of that one question  in the bible?

I LOVE this bible app https://bible.com/bible, (it has a brown book with gold letters that read the Holy Bible and a red bookmark at the bottom of it) because all you have to do is click on the search button that looks like a magnifying glass. Type in what you want to look up and scriptures will be pulled up. I like the New Living Translation, and the Amplified. Example: Sex before marriage….  

But because there is so much sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife, and each woman should have her own husband.

1 Corinthians 7:2 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/1co.7.2.NLT

Give honor to marriage, and remain faithful to one another in marriage. God will surely judge people who are immoral and those who commit adultery.

Hebrews 13:4 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/heb.13.4.NLT

When you follow the desires of your sinful nature, the results are very clear: sexual immorality, impurity, lustful pleasures, idolatry, sorcery, hostility, quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, selfish ambition, dissension, division, envy, drunkenness, wild parties, and other sins like these. Let me tell you again, as I have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the Kingdom of God.

Galatians 5:19‭-‬21 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/gal.5.19-21.NLT

This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one. Now the man and his wife were both naked, but they felt no shame.

Genesis 2:24‭-‬25 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/gen.2.24-25.NLT
I am going to stop here, because I believe I have made my point. It really isn’t hard to keep on reading and getting a different look to whatever you may be going through. It may even seem like the bible is talking about you and you are like “WOW” how can this be? 

I wonder if that is why, “it’s called the Living Word?” I’m trying to think if that is the right phase. Lisa – let me open another page and let google attempt to answer this question. I am right the Bible is referred to as the “Living Word.” I am smiling, because sometimes I don’t think I am remembering anything from what I have learned from church as well as my own studies. I am glad I just proved myself wrong.

My mind is wondering and I have to go back to the top of the page to find out what was the next part of what I am trying to talk about (or type about). I realized that one verse has a lot of questions. It makes you think and want to clear up every statement. The next part is  “I have tried hard to find you”– That is a good question. How many times have you set and wondered what I am going to do? You may be looking at overdue bills and no money coming in to help clear up your account and hoping you can still keep a roof over your families head and food on the table.

You’re probably thinking how can a book help me get out of this mess? You start thinking how you are not hurting anyone and how you  are working so hard to do the right thing, then why am I here? More unanswered questions.   

There was a time when I thought I was doing the right thing by working as hard as I can, helping as many people as I could, and never giving up hope. Isn’t that all we can do? Do we look for another job that pays more, what? I changed how I act and whom I hang out with, what else am I supposed to do? 

I really can’t put it into words, because all I know is that the Bible gets me to stop focusing on what is happening in the world and calms me down. I put my faith where it belongs. 

Dear brothers and sisters, after we were separated from you for a little while (though our hearts never left you), we tried very hard to come back because of our intense longing to see you again.

1 Thessalonians 2:17 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/1th.2.17.NLT

I know, my God, that you examine our hearts and rejoice when you find integrity there. You know I have done all this with good motives, and I have watched your people offer their gifts willingly and joyously.

1 Chronicles 29:17 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/1ch.29.17.NLT

I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”

John 16:33 NLT

https://bible.com/bible/116/jhn.16.33.NLT
There is no place God cannot find you if you open your heart towards Him and know you cannot hide from Him. He will let you walk your path, because no one can force you to believe. He will either put someone in front of your steps, you could hear a song, or someone talking. Someone He will get you thinking and you will seek Him out.

I believe I have already answered the latter part of verse 9  “I have hidden your word in my heart, that I might not sin against you.” He knows our every step, our thoughts, so there is no place where we could hide even if we tried. Why would you, because if you only knew? I want to run towards Him and I hope I am not alone? Take one step at a time and watch what happens!!!

 

                The End!!

 

The day didn’t start off as I liked, because I was enjoying a pleasant dream. I awoke with a storm raging outside, but there was no fear in me. I prayed my tree would live through it to get to a calm and clear sky soon.                
I thought I would lie back down and try to reenter my dream, but my mind was already thinking.  Okay up at 6am and already planning my steps throughout the day.

I got my thirty minute walk in. It may have been within my apartment, but I was moving and I am counting it. The rain was lighting up by the end of my walk, so why not take my crochet out on the patio, and enjoy it.

I had always wanted a large porch, so I could sit outside in a comfortable state, and enjoy the rain as it plays out in my view. It didn’t start off cold, but then again I came outside after my walk. I believe I stayed there for a little over an hour before I couldn’t get past my arms being cold.  

I keep looking at my cross stitch project and knowing I am almost done, I should pick it up, but what I know I have to do and what I want to do ~ my want outweighs my have to.

I also realized I need to start writing my stories for my website, because right now I only have 10. I am planning on uploading twice a week with at least two new stories within my pages and —

That “and” has now got me thinking, because I want to add on a few helpful sites to my page. I can only do that by checking out different sites as well as other bloggers who are talking about crochet.

And, I just remembered a few I have already read, so it’s a start. I knew it was too good to be true, for I had just finished another story “To Be Me or Them,” which I already posted today. I don’t know why I thought I was going to post a second story in one day. (it didn’t happened then ~ maybe 1 day)

~ I may not get to that 3000 word count as a so-called normal blog is supposed to be. Then again who knows what tomorrow or the next day may bring, because this isn’t my ending. I am taking another step to being me. This sidetrack is a good thing, because I am keeping on track what I had planned to do today.

• I wanted to workout – I did
• I wanted to crochet  – I did
• I wanted to work on setting my book free – I did
• I wanted to take care of some personal business, and I tried. Their website went down, but I will try again
• I wanted to post a story on my blog and look through a few other post –  I did
• I wanted to work on my website, about to do just that, and I will come back —–

                              4/13/2020 ~ 4:00pm

Although I turned the computer on to type down what was on my mind, I realized after I  reread what I started from yesterday, and I didn’t do what I set out to do. Sometimes it’s kind of best not to stop and eat.

I am torn in so many directions I really don’t know what I am going to do. I have enough sunlight for a little over two hours, so I can at least add in a few new stitches to my cross stitch project. Considering it is a Christmas gift way past it giving time.  

Then when I went back to my wordpress account looking for the stories I read about crocheting and to my sadness I forgot to save it. It was from someone else, but it’s not a total lost.  I put in my word and a few others popped up and all I want to do is get to reading.

And, yes people have told me I shouldn’t have anyone else on my website, because that will be free advertisement for them. I am making a face, because I am not going to be like anyone else. I don’t think like others do and I’m cool with that.

I am thinking it’s more like a book review only it will be about others doing what I enjoy doing. Crocheting is a time consuming craft. I LOVE LEARNING new ideas and how to make them a reality. And, if I can help someone else all the better!!

I also believe when you are not looking out to make money from someone and truly just want to share what you know. What’s more important and who knows where your heart will lead you? You help, someone helps another, and so on from there.

Well, I better stop here, because I am wasting daylight. I can add on no matter the light, but I can only work on my cross stitch in the sunlight.  One day I will get myself a special light up table for my craft. 

                              4/15/2020 ~ 11:15am

I had to make myself stop reading about the world of crochet or talking about crochet needles, because I remembered I hadn’t posted this story.

I can’t wait to get my website up and running to showcase as many people as I can about others who enjoy one of my favorite things to do. I have heard that crochet is a lost art, but I can honestly say that isn’t true.

Last night I felt like working on my cross stitch and was really sad, because the sun was going down and I could no longer work. I thought I was going to pick it up at first light, but my rainbow crochet blanket got into my hands first.

I just looked at the button left of my computer and I noticed my word count of 995 words is now over 1000. Yeah, it may have taken a day or two, but at least I am over the thousand word count.

Time to finish that cross stitch project…

Bye IV Now, LD*

~ In detail what I am learning about making money on pinterest doing what I enjoy doing everyday. I got my music being played in the background and after I typed in my first question. I realized my notebook and pens are on the desk across the room. I am not about to get up, but all is well. A computer can have more than one page open at a time.

~ I know I am just going over what I have read before, but one cannot get enough information when you are about to invest money into a side job. A  side job you know that will not make enough money to live on, but once again I am being true to myself. If you are doing things to make money, then you are taking the joy out of what you are doing, and where is the fun in that?

~ Life is too short and I am tired, BEYOND TIRED in doing my best and not getting it returned. Who would have believed in the year of 2020 the world would be in a stand still of  verses that are killing people. We live in an age where we can talk to family and friends across the world. We can even see them on a screen as we talk to them and that is just a small taste of what can be done in this age in time.

~ I have no interest in making a list of all the good and bad things that can and cannot be done today. The things that should be done or working on being done is way too high for me to count. As I am  looking around my bedroom, I realized as I have known before “its time be free,” and that means going over something I learned to do – so be it. The difference between then and now? I am truly ready to take that step.

Questions  & Answers on Google: How many affiliates can you have on a pinterest account?  The answer is yes you can have affiliates, but didn’t see an answer to my question.

I can only shake my head, because I already set up a business account on my pinterest page. I remember doing it, and now I know why I didn’t get to that next step. I didn’t have a website. There were so many sites to get information about starting a website and looking at prices. It was the prices that had stopped me from getting more information and actually  setting up a website for myself. 

I have been told that you had to have a large amount of items to sell and if not there was a way for you to set up another account to a company. That company would be unknown to the public as they placed an order through her, but it will be going to that unknown company. 

I started listening to what others had done to get their site up and what they are doing. I don’t like the idea of a person clicking on my site and ordering something from me that may or may not be a good product.  They couldn’t understand why I thought that was wrong and telling me that is how it is done. I am NOT A FOLLOWER!!

I am about to prove them wrong, because I am going to do this my way. “My way” reminds me of a song, but my mind is at a loss at who sang it? They say your mind is the first to go haha I know it was one Usher Raymond’s song. I just can’t remember what album it came from? 

I do know this, because one of his songs saved my life. I was walking towards the bus stop on a four way lane street and was enjoying my music and took a few step off of the sidewalk, but when “Confessions” a song from Usher came on my headphones I started dancing and jumped back onto the sidewalk, because well that was the safest place to dance. Anyway a second after I stepped onto the crib a red car ran a light and hit a truck which came right at me. I was able to move out of the way. My heart rate was high, but I wasn’t hurt. To this day I know if I hadn’t gotten into that song, who knew where I would be today.

I just realized I got sidetracked. I am also smiling, because I am just happy in what I am doing right now. I am just thinking out loud and just being me. I am not thinking about what I was supposed to be writing about, because I am done with that subject. Then again I never had a subject when I started writing. I have no idea what I want to say and I go from there. The title usually comes to me in the end?

Anyway, I know you place ads onto your account, and ads are another word for affiliates.  I even read where you can place ads onto your blog page, but I wouldn’t want to do that. I enjoy reading a story and not having to go through a written commercial.

I talked it over with my brother, who is more into this online world than I am, and he may not agree with what I want to do. He does understand and is going to help me set up my website my way.

I wished I had spoken with him a few days ago, because I spent two days looking into what a copywriter does and do I need one? Then again why should I pay someone to do what I can do. Then with all that time wasted it wasn’t meant for me. 

I am going to sell my craft on my page, but it will be in the form of a request. I will also offer to make a blanket or a simple (but nice) throw for them in a color of their choice. I don’t like the idea of anyone sending me money expecting their items within a month, not going to happen, and I am going to be up front about that.

Someone once called me “being too honest” and my eyes just opened wider, because that’s who I am. I have also learned that not everyone is going to be honest like myself, but I am not going to follow their steps.

I will not send an item until I get payment first and that is how business is made. They may not like this, but it will be a final sale on every item. People are funny and I have no idea what kind of demons they may have and will try to send them my way. So, that might be nother thing against me, but I can only be me.
Bye IV Now, LD*