I awoke with a purpose and although the sun wasn’t up with me, I got up and started my walk. I surprised myself by not only thinking of going for a walk, to walking before the sun was in the sky wow. It was a good way to  start my day.

I had originally wanted to workout with a lady on tv who does a morning stretch, but she was a little too advanced for me. It would have been nice if she had two ways  to show her workout routine.

That is one of the main reasons why I never liked going to an aerobic class, because there was a chance that there wasn’t someone showing you how to do the same steps in a slower way. For the few who are out of shape, may find it hard to keep up, and give up halfway through.

I have taken beginner classes, but for some reason the instructor goes so slow that I’m like no way. Then if you get lucky there are two people doing the same thing,  instead of doing jumps and high kicks, the second person’s moves aren’t so painful, and the average person can follow. That second person made the class more doable. I would definitely go back and tell others along the way to do the same.

My walk this morning was only a warm up, because my goal is to workout  at least two hours per day. They will not be joined together, but each minute  will count.

I have already added more water, (on my 2nd cup so far) less food, and a better attitude  are on the top of my list. Someone had suggested fasting and I know I cannot do that, so for now I am going to try it my way. I will cut out a full lunch and a light dinner.                     

I believe in a good breakfast to start my day and I am not going to change that. If I didn’t eat,  I wouldn’t be able to have a cup of coffee, and trust me when I say I am not a nice person without it. 

I thought I was the only person who didn’t like to drink their coffee with food. When I am eating I want to enjoy my food and it’s the same when I am drinking my coffee. Besides I am mentally preparing for my day and how can one start a realizing day without their coffee?

 I just finished a nice 10 minute routine and can’t wait for the next one.  I saw this “ 7 Day Challenge 7 minute workout on youtube,” https://youtu.be/yL_dE81O_mw  and it was easy to follow. Only time will tell if it will work.

Yesterday, I was so proud of myself for going farther in my walk outside. I have been aiming to get to the bottom of the hill after my regular routine. I normally walk up a small hill, back down the hill to the corner and turn right, but I wasn’t able to go to the end. 

Yeah, but I had the misfortune to be talking to a person who thought that that wasn’t much of a challenge. He (James) went on and on how I should be walking on a track and something else I don’t recall, because I started tuning him out. 

In those few words he made me recall why I stopped talking to him. I have another friend who isn’t so positive right now, but I realized she just wants to go back home. She lives in Costa Rica and of course she cannot with this sickness going on.

I figured if I can overlook her words, I could do the same for him, but I realized I cannot. Well, I will keep giving an encouraging note through text, but that will be about it. It will be up to him if he accepts that, because I cannot be a better me with “doubtful” words coming towards me.

I see the clock says it’s 1:35pm and my tummy is yelling at me. It says, “FEED ME!” I am going to get some fruit and another cup of water.  I will most likely get a granola bar by 3pm and another cup of water, but it will be heated.

I had read something about drinking hot water is good for you. I drank room temperature water all the time, but the word “hot” popped into my head. So, I googled what I was thinking. I read a  few sites, but I like this one best.

  https://food.ndtv.com/food-drinks/heres-why-you-should-start-your-day-with-a-glass-of-warm-water-1657259

I am NOT going to list any of the information  from it, so if you want to know what I read please feel free to go to the site. I will have to do the same thing, because I noticed a few other articles that would be good for my health.

I found a new crochet project a light blue drunken granny stitch

https://youtu.be/3h4397ZuwBM and I can’t wait to get back to it. 

Since, I am only close to 900 words, and I have decided no less than 1,000 word count for either my “Blog” or my “Website,” so I will come back after lunch, and my craft time.

I walked for another 15 minutes and danced for 30 for a total of one hour and ten minutes. I may not have gotten to the two hour workout planned today, but it was my first time testing this idea out. A little over an hour is better than none at all. 

I ended my day with a simi healthy dinner of salmon and oven fried carrots and potatoes. I was surprised it was good, but not very filling. I also didn’t go by the full recipe, because I wasn’t going to cook it in a half a stick of butter (Even if the butter was unsalted). The salmon wouldn’t have been as healthy as I liked and I am working on being , “A better me.”

(Those are carrots )

Bye IV Now, LD*

(1,018 word count)

 

I got up with a purpose today and so ready to start working on my light blue crochet  project. 

Its called: A Crochet Modern Boho Granny Stitch. I learned about it on YouTube.

I also noticed : https://daisyfarmcrafts.com/modern-boho-granny-crochet-blanket/

I may have played a few minutes on my township game and as I listened to some calming sounds coming from the television (channel 1911 a gospel station on music choice a station on cable).

I was not going to think how I had to take out two days’ work, because of a mistake. I normally would have continued to work on it and cover it up at the end.           

I got to thinking about the $85.00 to$100.00 that I will be charging for it and thought I am going to give my best. Now there are times when I honestly do not catch the mistake until my project is so far long, that I cannot redo it, and just have to move forward.

I am human and I have the ability to learn. I learn from mistakes and try not to do the same thing. I also look at others not with the mind “it won’t happen to me,” because I will do it differently. That is not a mind of learning, but one trying to outdo someone else.

It doesn’t matter who made the mistake, if you can learn from it, and make it right. That means choosing a different path and praying over each step you take. You keep moving forward for the past is the past and I am not going to let that hold me down. I may have to remind myself –

• I am Loved – I know I have Jesus, my son, a handful of family and friends. I am blessed. One doesn’t need to have a crowd around them to know this. And, I LOVE MYSELF!!!

On a side note ~ One has to know who are real and who are just there, because not everyone who says they are your friend are truly your friend. The person who is blood related from your  mother, aunt or uncle may not have the right heart for you, because a person who may share your blood can hurt you just as bad as that thief, and more.

• I am Not my mistake – There was a time I was walking through the world without a heart and allowed self doubt to take my dreams, believing the lies. I lost count of the times people have talked down to me, treating me as if I was really there, and if they didn’t care? Why should I?

On a side note ~ You are the only one who is in charge of your own steps. I walk on a path that says I can do anything I set my mind to. I am not going to let anyone stop me from setting my dreams free and that includes me. I know what I want and have taken steps to learn and grow and one day others will see what I know. Then again I do not care if they do or if they don’t see, because they are not me!

• I am More than what people see – They believe I should just work from paycheck to paycheck. It may not be a job you like and it doesn’t matter as long as your bills are paid.

On a side note ~ If you are not happy, you are not going to do your best, and what’s the point? You have one life to give, so why do something you don’t like. Then again if you like it, cool, do your best and work on your dream without others knowing about it. Keep a secret smile and enjoy your life the best you can.

• I have a dream and I am walking in it now and enjoying every step I take.

I am laughing,because that was a title of a Bobby Brown song years ago,  “Every little step,” and now I do not remember the word to it. I know he (Bobby Brown) was in black dancing with two male background dancers also in black and a skinny light skin black girl was walking around in a black mini skirt and a silver top.  This video also showed him with a new weird haircut and dancing the running man. I guess I remembered a lot about the video..

The sun is out and I am so grateful for another day. I cannot help but smile and I am not going to let anyone take this feeling away from me.

I realized not everyone is on the positive side, especially this day in age with this virus keeping everyone in the house and on edge.  I have one friend who I know is a nice person and strong in her belief. We look at Jesus in two different ways, but we both agree He is good.

I figured if I could overlook some of the things I don’t agree with, I could do the same for a long time friend. Let’s call him “James,” after last night I am starting to rethink the decision to allow him back into my space.

I almost overlooked the mistake I made on my light blue project and after taking in a loud breath I had to redo a part of it and his statement had me shaking my head. 

James : What’s wrong?                            Me       : I just made a mistake and have to redo my stitch.                                James : That’s no big deal.                      Me       : It’s time I get me some tea with ginger and go to bed.                          James : What’s the ginger for. You sick?Me       : No, it’s good for you. I even tried it in my coffee.                           James  : Don’t do that you’re going to make yourself sick.                                  Me       : Not, it was a little spicy and good. I am done talking to you good night and bye.

I hung up on any response that he might have said. I knew he had gotten under my skin, because of that first sip of my tea. I didn’t realize I had too much lemon in it and I couldn’t drink it.

I wonder if he even caught onto the caring words that he was saying? I was told at an early age to think before I speak, because once a word is said it cannot be taking back. You can apologize, but those hurtful words cannot be forgotten. 

I believe that is why it takes me a moment to say what’s on my mind, but make no mistake. I will be truthful and to the point.

My son came home and anything that wasn’t a good thought was pushed aside.  That’s what I am talking about. If a person can’t make you smile, then why are they in your space?

I am thinking about only talking to him through text only. Then again why should he be in my space if he isn’t worth it. Life is too short to allow even a thought of anything less than positive and no matter how I talk of this he has a “me,” personality and doesn’t see anyone else. 

I am smiling, because I just answered my own question. I have to get back to my light blue project, but first a cup of coffee..

Bye IV Now, LD*

(1202+ word count)

 

Who knew a clean kitchen can make you smile? I have stopped dreaming about things I see on a tv or movie screen. It took me a while to understand I do not know the truth behind the words and pictures I see in a magazine. 

You may see a smiling face, but is it real? So, I am happy with my smile. My kitchen was just a little out of order and it’s now lemon fresh. A true smile is better then a fake smile. 

I started posting positive thoughts and pictures on my Facebook page, because you never know who may be crying underneath that smile that is shown in the public eye. It’s a time where we should be encouraging each other and not just focusing on the bad things. How can we get through this? What can we do until it’s over.

I know there are a few who do not understand the Bible and may not believe. I do know if one stays in the dark one cannot see the light, so why not focus on something good. Think of a way to make that bad thing good.

I also learned to not look at the big picture, but break it down into small pieces. No job is too small, because if someone hadn’t built those steps no one else could go to the next flour. So, just maybe sending something positive is a good thing.

I have a few friends who talk about wanting a better outcome, but more focus on the darkness. That’s all they want to talk about, so I have learned to say a quick hello. I also text those who text. The best thing about a text is you keep it short and to the point and if you answer with a letters like: “K” “O” “U” 

If you have a person whom you know likes to talk and you are just not in the mood, but you still want to be polite. My phone has a, “can’t talk, text you later” button. I don’t feel too bad about not answering it. Sometimes that is true I am busy, but there are times when I am just not feeling that person.

My positive words for myself is, “A better me,” because that is what I am working on. It will be  better for both mind and body. Those three words are keeping me moving even when all I want to do is sit down. I decided to break down my workouts from one thirty minute workout to a three thirty minute workout each day.

I took a few minutes to throw in a few cornrows, because for some reason I cannot find a hat. It’s a good thing I am not so into my looks that I have to be  modal every time I walk out of my door. I can go out and enjoy a short walk. I am going to push through my walk no matter how painful it may be.

Yesterday (2 days ago now) after my doctor’s visit I realized what I have been looking at was true. I knew I was overweight, but that 293 made me sound like Ric Flair who used to say whoo. I shook my head and recalled my words. “A better me,” and those numbers are not me.

It’s time that I stop here and get outside, because the sky is grey. I don’t mind walking under a grey sky, but it’s not good walking in the rain. Then again it’s not so bad, but I cannot take a chance on getting a simple cold. We are now living in a time where the simple can be turned into something that goes beyond simple.

It was raining lightly and the old me would have gone back into the house, but I am not who I was a few weeks ago. I turned my key and grabbed a jacket and an umbrella, with the sound of gospel off I went.

I started to turn right and go down a hill, but I turned left and walked up a small hill. I didn’t even get halfway before my back started yelling at me. “I am not listening to you pain – you can go away.” is what I said. I may have had to stand still a few times, but I wasn’t going to stop.

Thirty minutes doesn’t sound like a lot and it will not make a difference. That would be a dark side trying to keep you from the light. I know every little step goes a long way, One has to take baby steps before they can get to that full out strength run. 

.The best thing about starting off slow, it helps you keep moving, and one day you will notice your thirty minute workout is way too easy. Then it will be time to add fifteen extra minutes  and then another fifteen minutes. I myself will call it done at an hour, but then again that’s me. Who knows that time frame could change only time will tell.

Eggs are cooling (I am boiling two eggs) for my salad. I had planned on being a vegetarian to lose weight, but my doctor told me that wasn’t a good idea. So chicken, (not fried) sea food, and red meat once a month. I still plan on eating light and extra veggies every day along with more water.

Just thinking about water I am making a face. The only good side to that is , my doctor was happy with the five cups a day I have been drinking, and she and I didn’t have to drink a gallon a day. Now that was the best news I got yesterday.

Well my writing time is up for the day. Someone said it was a time to be lazy and I’m like NO WAY! I have always liked to be doing something, because look what happened. I was just eating and crocheting as well as working on my cross stitch. I LOVE my projects, but sitting down for hours doesn’t do your body good.

I am also the one who likes to plan things out and today I am just checking things off as being done. It is now a time to work on my craft before I eat and a little reading and my last 30 minute workout by dancing to end my Saturday off right.

If I cannot find a movie on TV, there is always the computer as I eat the last of my cheesy cauliflower Mexican rice dinner. I had tried a store brand of cauliflower rice and it was the nastiest thing I ever tasted and wasn’t going to try it again, but I knew I had to add more veggies. So I found a recipe that I turned into one of my own, and it was so good. 

My son said he didn’t need to add ranch to it and he puts ranch on everything he eats. I am so glad he liked it. A big hit and I can’t wait to do it again.

Sometimes you have to put your own spend on it to make it good. I also added black beans and I didn’t care for them before.

 

Bye IV Now, LD*

(1215 word count) 

 

Today was the first time I slept past 8am and was not sick. I guess the rain outside was soothing. I have heard that rain helps you sleep. I like to watch the rain, so I normally don’t sleep through it. 

Well as long as it’s not a storm I enjoy the rain. I find it relaxing. It’s like washing away all that’s dirty in the air, and giving life to nature’s beauty. The trees clean our air, the flowers allow bees to make honey, and plants keep us from going hungry. 

It doesn’t matter if you are a woman, man, child, and an animal. We all need to drink water. I know for me it’s hard to do, because it doesn’t have a taste. I may not drink as much as my doctor or my child (who is now 21) likes me too, but some water is better than none.

Times like this morning I wish I had a book in hand to read, but I have read all of the books I have. There are times when I can read a book over, but then there are times as soon as I read a few pages I recall the whole book. That isn’t a good book to read again.

I had thought getting up late was going to make me lazy, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize my body needed the rest. I watched a movie as I worked on a cross stitch project all before my talk show came on. 

I am NOT going to miss the ladies of “The Real” talk show go without watching it. I enjoyed a cup of coffee or two as someone had me laughing. It may have started off on a sad note, because we are living in a sad time right now, but some are trying to stay positive and encourage others to not focus on the bad things.

I also worked on my rainbow blanket and my time was well spent. The sun came out and I did go for a short walk and as I look out the window I am thinking about going out again. I may not be going too far, but some fresh air is better than none.

 I have had a productive day so far. It is a little after 3pm and I am surprised  I am not hungry. There was a time when I would just eat whether I was hungry or not. If you look at the clock, it says it’s past lunch time, and you need to eat.

I remember the food chart I saw in school years ago  and said something about eating three meals per day. I agree we all need to eat, but why eat when you are not hungry? 

I am good with my rosemary popcorn and water for now. I’ll just eat a big dinner at an earlier time. I have no idea what that will be, but that question will be answered in a few hours from now.

I have been looking for a DVD for a few days and I still haven’t found it. I went through my dvd’s and found that I had two copies of other movies (the extra ones will be donated to the library as soon as it’s open) but not the one I am looking at.

I really want to  work on my rainbow blanket as I watch Frozen  and Frozen 2 back to back. I watched Frozen 2 about a month ago and today I thought it would be cool to watch them back to back as I work on my gift. I know it’s looking at me as I overlook it. I bet I will put my DVD back  after I watch it. This will be my last time looking for a DVD…..

Yeah I found what was lost and now I am once again going to do something different.  I already finished an article for my website and started this one for my blog, so I am doing good, and tomorrow I will finish this (hopefully) and go on from there. 

I kind of like having a lot of things to keep me busy throughout these long days. Then again my mind doesn’t focus on one thing for too long anyway. Some may think I am not getting anything done, but time management is a cool thing. One has to know what their limits are and how to make time work for them. You may not understand my order and that’s cool, because you are not me. I am doing things my way, because I like being “Me”…..

(7:21am) Another day and I almost missed my time to walk as I thought out my day. I may have sat in my room for a few minutes looking at the tv that wasn’t turned into a television show, but a gospel music channel. I had to shake my head and get up, because if I could sit and think. I can walk and think as well.

I got my first 30min walk in for today. I am going to push for nothing less than 5 more times. It may not be much, but a little movement has to count. I am also adding a low impact chair workout to this routine. I may not lose those extra pounds I have picked up since being locked up. I am working on not adding to them.

The sun is out and it looks like it’s going to be a nice day. The thing is I don’t feel like doing my hair right now, so I am just going to have to enjoy the sight of a beautiful day, and not be out in it. Then again it is still early and I haven’t yet had my coffee.

I was going to end this here, but I have an unclear thought I wanted to add. Don’t you hate when you lose your train of thoughts and no matter how hard you try to recall that thought. It just seems like it’s gone for good. Like when you are looking for something and you cannot find it as soon as you stop looking for it, it was so close and your mind just overlooked it? That is another unanswered question of how that happens?

The beauty of outside is slowly fading, because my eyes really want to close. I don’t have the energy to go no father then my bed and don’t like this feeling. Think I will go out on the patio and work on my rainbow blanket and stop thinking so much. I am putting way too much time in planning my day. 

There is a saying “What may come – comes?” I am at a loss at the real saying, and I am wrong. I am going to end this here and more on to a different thought. No sense trying to add on when this thought is done.. 

 

Bye IV Now, LD*

Today was the first time I slept past 8am and was not sick. I guess the rain outside was soothing. I have heard that rain helps you sleep. I like to watch the rain, so I normally don’t sleep through it. 

Well as long as it’s not a storm I enjoy the rain. I find it relaxing. It’s like washing away all that’s dirty in the air, and giving life to nature’s beauty. The trees clean our air, the flowers allow bees to make honey, and plants keep us from going hungry. 

It doesn’t matter if you are a woman, man, child, and an animal. We all need to drink water. I know for me it’s hard to do, because it doesn’t have a taste. I may not drink as much as my doctor or my child (who is now 21) likes me too, but some water is better than none.

Times like this morning I wish I had a book in hand to read, but I have read all of the books I have. There are times when I can read a book over, but then there are times as soon as I read a few pages I recall the whole book. That isn’t a good book to read again.

I had thought getting up late was going to make me lazy, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize my body needed the rest. I watched a movie as I worked on a cross stitch project all before my talk show came on. 

I am NOT going to miss the ladies of “The Real” talk show go without watching it. I enjoyed a cup of coffee or two as someone had me laughing. It may have started off on a sad note, because we are living in a sad time right now, but some are trying to stay positive and encourage others to not focus on the bad things.

I also worked on my rainbow blanket and my time was well spent. The sun came out and I did go for a short walk and as I look out the window I am thinking about going out again. I may not be going too far, but some fresh air is better than none.

I have had a productive day so far. It is a little after 3pm and I am surprised  I am not hungry. There was a time when I would just eat whether I was hungry or not. If you look at the clock, it says it’s past lunch time, and you need to eat.

I remember the food chart I saw in school years ago  and said something about eating three meals per day. I agree we all need to eat, but why eat when you are not hungry? 

I am good with my rosemary popcorn and water for now. I’ll just eat a big dinner at an earlier time. I have no idea what that will be, but that question will be answered in a few hours from now.

I have been looking for a DVD for a few days and I still haven’t found it. I went through my dvd’s and found that I had two copies of other movies (the extra ones will be donated to the library as soon as it’s open) but not the one I am looking at.

I really want to  work on my rainbow blanket as I watch Frozen  and Frozen 2 back to back. I watched Frozen 2 about a month ago and today I thought it would be cool to watch them back to back as I work on my gift. I know it’s looking at me as I overlook it. I bet I will put my DVD back  after I watch it. This will be my last time looking for a DVD…..

Yeah I found what was lost and now I am once again going to do something different.  I already finished an article for my website and started this one for my blog, so I am doing good, and tomorrow I will finish this (hopefully) and go on from there. 

I kind of like having a lot of things to keep me busy throughout these long days. Then again my mind doesn’t focus on one thing for too long anyway. Some may think I am not getting anything done, but time management is a cool thing. One has to know what their limits are and how to make time work for them. You may not understand my order and that’s cool, because you are not me. I am doing things my way, because I like being “Me”…..

(7:21am) Another day and I almost missed my time to walk as I thought out my day. I may have sat in my room for a few minutes looking at the tv that wasn’t turned into a television show, but a gospel music channel. I had to shake my head and get up, because if I could sit and think. I can walk and think as well.

I got my first 30min walk in for today. I am going to push for nothing less than 5 more times. It may not be much, but a little movement has to count. I am also adding a low impact chair workout to this routine. I may not lose those extra pounds I have picked up since being locked up. I am working on not adding to them.

The sun is out and it looks like it’s going to be a nice day. The thing is I don’t feel like doing my hair right now, so I am just going to have to enjoy the sight of a beautiful day, and not be out in it. Then again it is still early and I haven’t yet had my coffee.

I was going to end this here, but I have an unclear thought I wanted to add. Don’t you hate when you lose your train of thoughts and no matter how hard you try to recall that thought. It just seems like it’s gone for good. Like when you are looking for something and you cannot find it as soon as you stop looking for it, it was so close and your mind just overlooked it? That is another unanswered question of how that happens?

The beauty of outside is slowly fading, because my eyes really want to close. I don’t have the energy to go no father then my bed and don’t like this feeling. Think I will go out on the patio and work on my rainbow blanket and stop thinking so much. I am putting way too much time in planning my day. 

There is a saying “What may come – comes?” I am at a loss at the real saying, and I am wrong. I am going to end this here and more on to a different thought. No sense trying to add on when this thought is done.. 

 

Bye IV Now, LD*