Dear James, A Question

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 Dear James,

 

     I would start this letter with a friendly greeting, but you have moments when you forget your manners. It seems no matter the day or time when you wish to talk to me, I always accommodate you, and I always greet you with a proper greeting. I always ask how are you feeling, showing you concern for your well being.                                                                      I do know sometimes I am feeling so happy, I do talk real quickly, but I do get back to my manners and ask how are you doing and so on.                        The problem we are going through is you acting more of a girl then me? You call and get upset when I don’t answer. The problem is you call when I am at church or its late. You may work late and can sleep in, but you know I have to get up before the sun to be at work by 7am.                                                      I can’t believe I awoke to more then one rude text and me trying to figure out why we are friends? Another I have to answer. I am at a lost for words right now. Thinking about my mango sweet tea.. 

  

 

       #Bye4Now

 

        

Coffee ~ Coffee

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Coffee – coffee and more coffee

I am so HAPPY I found my

 favorite Coffee

I do not care what 

others  may say

Coffee are NOT

 all  the same

It isn’t the 

Name brand

nor

Is it the flavor

My coffee can only be

found in one store

Across town

And 

 when one has to work 

And

when one doesn’t have a car

One has to make due.

I lost count of the others

that  had to fill in

None were close to being great

Some barely made it to okay

A few had to add extra creamer

just for it to have a little taste

If the pain in my head would 

have held off

I would not have tired

A fill in coffee at all

I knew my favorite coffee

Couldn’t be replaced

Just when I thought I was 

Never going to enjoy

that wonderful taste again

I am grateful I took a chance

On that hour ride there

but an hour & a half back

standing in the sun (Bus was late) 

that wasn’t cool

but Marshall’s finally

had it in stock

In baseball 3 strikes 

you are o.u.t out

But, for me I won.

It may have taken 3 times

to get back to the store

with the thought of walking out 

of the store empty handed

wasn’t a good thought

But NOT today

A big Smile was across my face

As I held two bags 

Full

of

Coffee!!!

I held that smile all the way home 

and couldn’t wait to get 

a cup or two

I can honestly 

 say

I love coffee..

 

THE

       END!!

 

Dear James

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Dear James,

       I would ask how are you doing, but from past conversations I know you are still lost. I can only pray you open your eyes, clear your mind, so you free the pain in your heart.

         I know we cannot help who we love, but we must know what love is in order for this feeling to be real. Love is the strongest feeling us humans have and it can be a joyous feeling or be used as a weapon? How are you using it or how is it being used on you.

     You have been playing this broken record for over twenty-five years. Once you could hear music a sweet sound you could close your eyes and replay the words over and over. A smile forming on your  inside as well as outside for the world to see. 

   A record can play a lifetime, (well as long as you have a record player – for some reason in this age 2019 some kids do not know what I record is? I sometimes miss the 80’s) but without proper care it scratched.  I’ve known some people who could mend a scratch, but if it’s so deep its time to throw it away.

  I can see you shaking your head as you read my letter and even hear you say, “this is my life and not some dumb record,” and I understand when your emotions are so high that you cannot see through the clouds. Then that’s when you start calling out for help, but it’s still your choice if you accept that help.

         There was a time when we didn’t talk, not because of time zones, but because you didn’t like my answers. I wasn’t the only ones who saw those clouds turning black and tried to warn you before the storm came.

        It is true that not everyone will like everyone, and sometimes their feelings for you overrides  the new face in the picture, but then if more than a handful of people are telling you to run?       

           It’s time you look at this relationship in a different way. This what I did and I know it works because I am truly smiling today. Here is some homework for you: 

1.  Write down everything you like about women. (A man for me)          2.  Write down everything you don’t like in a. women.      (A man for me)       3.  Write down what you want in a relationship.                                         4.  Write down what u believe a  relationship should be.                 5.  Where do you see yourself in twenty years?

        One has to know one’s self worth and   Love themselves to be worthy of another person.  After you have made a list of at least 5 or more answers to each question. Then ask yourself if you and your friend matches your answers.

         I am alone by choice, because I Will not let anyone play games with my feelings or my person. Once I got closer to Jesus I realized I want a Real man. I believe in order for you to find a real woman who wants u & not your $$$ u have to get right yourself.

         It’s hard, but who said life would be easy. Nothing worth having is going to be less then a fight, but is that fight worth having.

~And I myself will fight against you with an outstretched hand and with a strong arm, even in anger, and in fury, and in great wrath.

Jeremiah 21:5 KJV

https://bible.com/bible/1/jer.21.5.KJV

          My mind is so much clearer and I can see. I watch other couples and some I agree with and others I say, “that works for them yeah,” but that’s not me. Looking and learning from different married couples made me realize I am worth something real. My question for you is how come you don’t?

          Sorry if u don’t agree, but that was and is my truth. Be safe, get into the Word (I’ll send it 2 u 2 download on your phone) and enjoy your weekend. I’m using the Bible App by YouVersion.com. Download it now for your mobile device. https://j794q.app.goo.gl/i/1Fijr

       The best thing about this app all you have to do is put in how you are feeling and it will give you scriptures. It also have reading plans and makes it easy to understand and share. One can’t keep His love to themselves it MUST be shared. 

       I am going to end this here and truth be told I don’t want you to tell me anymore of your problems on this subject, because you are not listening. Life to too short for needless drama. My pressure will not be raised by it, I have enough on my side. The difference is I have a high force backing me and I am not worried.

~The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?

Psalms 118:6 KJV

https://bible.com/bible/1/psa.118.6.KJV

 

More Unanswered Questions..

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Heart Rate is a little fast as I slowly control my breathing. I admit I sometimes overlook the obvious. Then once I have time to actually think about what I said as well as what was said, I am smiling at my foolishness.

I read (NIV) 1st Samuel Ch 15:1-34 and I couldn’t understand why Saul didn’t do as God had told him to do?  Why did he only do half of what was told and believe that was okay?

I am no saint, but I do follow man made laws as well as the Good book (The Bible). I am honest and sometimes I have to hold my words back to not hurt someone’s feeling. I will say what I have to and stop pushing my point. I only wish others would feel the same.

I allowed self-doubt to enter my mind and my spirit and had me thinking about not moving forward. I am now YELLING satan GET UNDER MY FEET, BECAUSE JESUS IS GUIDING MY FEET. Fear was trying to get a hold of my spirit. So grateful for the Word. True I may have read 1st Sam last night and I just got a hold of what I read. I did say I was a little slow sometimes.

It is a little scary stepping out on a different plan, but if you don’t how can you improve your life. I also know this isn’t my true job, but it will get me closer to it. 

Why do people want to hold you down? They know you are strangling and keep wishing you well. Then once you get closer to opening that door, they are pulling you back? More questions without answers. Then again I might not like the answer if I look a little closer.

(Laughing) I am not going to worry about anyone or anything that tries to hold me down. I am about to get me a cup or two of coffee and then start working on my book. Yes, I am writing another series of books and can’t wait to get into my world. Never let anyone take your joy….

 

                              The

                                    End!

Still Smiling

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Once again I find myself laughing at what people are saying to me and I am amazed. I was told the water you drink today, will not be released until tomorrow, and you should keep drinking half your body weight each day.

I agree water is good for everyone to drink every day. When I am at home. I will drink more water, and it’s strange, because an hour or so I am closing the bathroom door. I don’t know of any place one can work and stay in the bathroom more than they  are working without a medical note.

So, that theory of what you drink today comes out tomorrow, I don’t buy it, nor does drinking a lot while I am working, but I am drinking more water then I use to. All in all I am good.

One can laugh as you listen to the foolishness. In order for you to walk off your extra pounds, you have to be outside, or in a gym. There was a time when I would go to the mall an hour before it opened, and enjoyed comfortable walking inside cool air. Today I walk around my apartment and do a low impact workout. 

I must be doing something right, because I am a better me. I may not have reached my goal yet and I know that’s a good thing. The faster you lose it, the faster those pounds return, and I’m not going for that. I pound or two works great for me.                           

Today I added an upper body workout and my arms are yelling at me. The phrase “no pain, no gain” comes to mind and I must have done it right.

Walking also helps clear your mind. I am working, but working 13 hours doesn’t feel like work at the end of the week. Looking for a better job is longer and without pay. You get a few hopeful leads, but have to turn them down. Then when you finally get something you believe you could do and you share that joy, only to be shot down.

Yes, your so called friends know you are struggling to keep a roof over your families head, food in their rummies, and everyday needs. They never offered a helping hand and you never asked. I made it through, but sometimes a person get tired of barley making it through.

I can laugh through their careless words, because I put my faith in God’s Words and not the everyday men and women. One can listen to another person’s point of view, but in the end obe has to do what’s best for them.

I still say people are funny and who knows they may be feeling the same way about me. It’s time to take a step out into the unknown and be free to be me:  The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?Psalms 27:1 NLT 

https://bible.com/bible/116/psa.27.1.NLT

See I am still Smiling 😃

 

THE END!!!