We all can talk and some even may understand the words that are coming out of our mouth. But what if you are saying one thing and your meaning is totally different from what you are saying?
I thought I was being nice and letting go and ending a friendship clear and to the point? I was wrong, because they kept reaching out. Phone calls and text messages have gone unanswered. You know you are right, but it still bugs you that there seems no end to thisâŚ
You reached out to friends (female friends donât answer) and one brave person (yes a male friend) who told me my words werenât strong enough. He heard my anger, and pointed out it wasnât towards the right person, and I agree.
I have decided I am âNO LONGER GOING TO PUT MY FEELINGS ASIDE TO TALK WITH ANYONEâ. As a person no one wants to be alone and if there is a light coming from somewhere even if that light is grey we move towards it.
I LOVE looking up, because just like the clouds I am always changing. Thereâs beauty in everything and I REALLY DO NOT need someone to tell me I am beautiful or to talk to. I Know I am Loved. I have a few people who I can honestly call my friend (even if we donât talk every day) and family. Â
I am Blessed and it’s time I act like it. I am listening to a song by Jonathan McReynolds & Mali called âMovinâ On,â and I believe everyone should not only listen to these words, but understand them. One has to move on to be free and Happy. We can either learn and move on or we can stay where we are and die like everyone else. I am not like anyone else I am More than what they see. So, Who Are You?
I have been working on a better me for awhile and I havenât noticed a change. I changed how I ate, started walking, and did everything I could. I had to stop and rethink and really ask myself âAm I doing all I can do?â
I am laughing, because people tell you – you donât have to change, because you look good as you are. I shake my head knowing their lies. I have come to realize people know they are not at their best and there was NO WAY they were going to encourage you to be better then they areâŚ
I have always talked about going meatless. I even tried a few times, but only lasted a day. I will not give up eggs, but I donât eat that every day and one still needs a little protein in their lifeâŚ.
I know I can do this, because it cost me over a hundred dollars to shop for my new way of eating. I started with squash, zucchini, and tomatoes over rice. Yesterday, we had a veggie stir fry over fried rice. Tonight is a big pot of veggie soup and that will cover the next 2 or 3 days. (I do have a young man in the house)
If I can drink a pitcher of water, and I REALLY DO NOT LIKE DRINKING WATER!!! I can do anything. I am ignoring those who donât believe I can change how I eat or lose weight. (They are now passing friends and I am okay with that)
I only have one life to live and I am choosing to live my life the BEST as I can and SMILING through each step. I wish I others could understand they donât have to bring others down to make them feel better, because we all only have control over our own body and WORDS WILL NEVER BRING DOWN A STRONG PERSONâŚ
I am amazed that there are two James? I am also wondering why and how I keep attracting them? I didnât believe there could be two people with the same backwards thoughts.(SMH)
The other day I saw a mug with a black ladyâs face with an Afriacn hat and I automatically thought about my friend Ann.
She is the mother of five and not only has a strong faith in God. She not only encourages her kids, but their friends (one of them being my son) as well to be better than what people may see them to be.
She didnât even blink when we lost our place and she took him in without blinking an eye and to me that is âA Black Queenâ a.k.a the cup. (I didnât find out that it was her birthday until the next day, but all in all. I am Smiling, because she liked my gift)
Today without thinking I put on a pale yellow t-shirt (My mother gave me as a Christmas gift) that reads âStrong Empowered Woman,â and I agree 100% that is who I am.
James #1 I have known over twenty years and although I wasnât saved then, times have changed. The day I found Christ was the best thing that ever happened to me and âYes, I did let him know.â
We stayed friends. I had to keep reminding him that I no longer saw the world through dull eyes, I looked for a way to make things better, and holding onto my faith. I had stopped talking to him, because of his hurtful words. I know he doesnât mean anything, because he sees the world through his eyes only.Â
James # 2 had said he asked me to watch a movie and get dinner at his house, because he wanted some company. He has been working at home, since his company shut down, because of Corvid.
I canât believe I did the same thing, when I started talking to James #1 again. I even explained why I had stopped talking to him, (and of course no apology) but out of knowing him for so long. I didnât want to end our friendship without trying to even out the rough spots.
It really didnât take long before his one sided conversation was starting to bug me. I tried talking to him, but he wasnât listening. I said, âGood-Byeâ to him a few weeks ago, and I will NOT answer his calls or text. (I am laughing, because he just called again. I wish I knew how to block his number)
I am NOT going to put my feelings aside so I can talk to someone. I know how to get into the Word (the Bible), work on my projects from my book, short stories, crochet, or cross stitch.
I do have a few friends I can talk to and I know I AM LOVED and do not have to put myself second for anyone.
Now James #2 first asked what I was doing, but not really listening as I told him I was almost done with my book and jokingly said, âand so ready to get paidâ and then going to read more of first Samuel. That would be a book in the Bible.
James #2 couldnât believe I wouldnât go to his place. I was just about to say, âgoodnightâ when the fool had the nerve to say, âWell I guess you didnât want to make any money tonight.â
I was silent for a second and calming said, âYou havenât heard a word I said I am a Christan a child of God and too GOOD for you.â I suggested he read the Bible and get satan out of his heart for he will never amount to anything and that life could be cut short. I hung up and thought what a sad little stout of a wanna be man he is.
As I was walking home today I thought maybe it’s just the name James that turned men a little crazy. I am thinking I will read the book of James after I finish reading 1st Samuel. I am hoping I am wrong about that name.
{On a side note: I just remembered Loni Love from The Real said she was dating a new man and he was nice and his name is James. I guess there are a few good men named James}. Silly me – I also just remembered James isn’t their real name, because I didn’t want anyone to Sue me for telling my truth…..
James #1 only thinks of himselfâŚ
James #2 thinks ungodly thoughtsâŚ
I am Smiling, because like my t-shirt says I am a Strong Woman and NO ONE CAN CHANGE THAT!!!!
Had a “TLC” moment today. For those who are not fullmer with the trio of young ladies group in the 80s. I don’t recall the song, but it was the one where the guy sitting in the passenger seat of a car trying to holler at the girlâŚ. (Now that I am no longer on my phone, let me Google that title of that song) âN0 Scrubsâ a very COOL songâŚ.
Well, I never thought that could happen, and to happen to me had me in a “WOW” moment. If this is what make-up does (I don’t normally wear it), I may never wear it again.
1st co-worker : Did you go out last night or put on make-up this morning?
Me(frowning) : No I got up at 5am as I do every work day..
I had to cut my words short, because she isn’t from America and keeps saying rude things. I like to believe she doesnât know she is being rude. I am just going to have to remember to keep words short and sweet with her.
I closed my eyes a second before I walked away from her, and smiled. I added some color to my face today, because 1. I am a girl and it’s allowed. 2. I wanted a new look. (one day I am going to learn how to put it on correctly) Well, it’s time to get back to my next crochet projectâŚ
I have always wanted to travel, but I am going to start being honest with myself. I may NOT be able to visit other States across my homeland, but that doesnât mean I cannot see them.
I am in a new age where anywhere can be seen online and one can set their dreams free if âThey just Change how they look out into the world,â so here I go looking at the World with new eyes.
I will start with Alabama and go from thereâŚ.
(I wanted to add a picture, but I got to thinking about what is copyright and what is free? I will come back to this or not – )
Alabama – US State
Description
Alabama is a southeastern U.S. state thatâs home to significant landmarks from the American Civil Rights Movement. The city of Birmingham’s 16th Street Baptist Church, now a museum, was a protest headquarters in the 1960s. Martin Luther King, Jr.’s church and the Rosa Parks Museum, dedicated to the activist, can be found in the capital of Montgomery. â Google
**A Side Note: This idea came from me watching a video on youtube of New York City and I thought I could watch a video on other States as I continue to work on my baby blue blanket (which I am almost done with) and get a feel for the State.
However that isnât what I saw. The first thing that came to mind was, âthis State LOVES its football,â and this wasnât what I was looking for.
Then I noticed âThe doâs and donâtâ video and thought that was a good idea. I got to copying and pasting and then saw the copyright sign. My first thought was to get in contact with them and ask them if I could add their story to mind.
That was a Big âNOâ from me. I knew if I had to stop and wait for an answer I had to stop writing and by the time I got an answer I would have moved past this story.
~ So, I am going to first look for another video that may showcase this state, and go from thereâŚ..
BIRMINGHAM, ALABAMA Top 10 Places YOU NEED TO SEE!
601 TRAVELS Let’s explore BIRMINGHAM, ALABAMA and find out what makes it a GREAT place. Birmingham is a city in the north central region of the U.S. state of Alabama. With an estimated 2019 population of 209,403, it is the most populous city in Alabama. Birmingham is the seat of Jefferson County, Alabama’s most populous and fifth largest county. Watch our What Makes This a GREAT Place Playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…
THEWORLDOFTRAVEL Alabama is a state located in the southeastern region of the United States. It is bordered by Tennessee to the north, Georgia to the east, Florida and the Gulf of Mexico to the south, and Mississippi to the west. Alabama is the 30th-most extensive and the 23rd-most populous of the 50 United States. At 1,300 miles (2,100 km), Alabama has one of the longest navigable inland waterways in the nation. Source: Wikipedia
This was more of what I was looking for. It showed some very cool pictures. I wish it was a little longer, but I canât wait to watch the next videoâŚ
Come tour with us Birmingham Alabama on this Travel City Tour in 4k We explore around Downtown Birmingham Alabama Tourhttps://www.instagram.com/wonderliv/
đ đ Now this is what I was looking for. This video may not have had the music or the names of all the areas that were seen. This video was like seeing the state as if you were driving through the streets of Birmingham Alabama and that is what you were doing.
I felt as if I was there (although I would have had some music in the background, but that maybe just me) and it was cool.
As the driver got closer to what I was really curious to know what those large poles were that were on the right side of the driver as they drove past a street sign that read: 12 Ave N. was it a baseball field or maybe a golf course?
It’s Google mapâs time. I have an address so – Still donât know what I saw. It’s okay, I am now over it. I thought I would add some history to this, but then I remembered I didnât like doing that while I was in school and I am NOT about to do that now. Besides, I am not writing a history report or acting as a tour guide. (Feel free to look up all the info you want to look up online or your local library)
I just want to look at places that make up America and who knows maybe another state may catch my attention and I would like to know more about it. Until then it’s time to get back to my blanketâŚ.
Just have to add a border and this project will be doneâŚ.
3am Thunder of Words 
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