Up early and doing the same thing. Playing a game and Not being me. I closed my eyes and turned the computer off and reached for my study bible I started and it got lost. I was going to just reread and start again. Then I thought ~ Why not type, think, and focus on my past thoughts… And more forward once I get caught up… Hope u don’t mine coming with me… If anyone is reading… Sorry for sometime just writing for me…. Or am I? Its okay to look back, as long as you don’t stay there and never know if someone else feels the same…  

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 “The Book of Esther”…..

Ch 1: 1-10 King Ahasuerus was a rich king and didn’t mind sharing his wealth to others (high racks) while giving a party for more than a week.                                                                  Jan 3rd, 2018

Ch 1:11-20 The King had requested Queen Vashti to come to the party of another princes and important people, but she refused to go. It looked bad that she didn’t do as the King asked or told. So, he divorced her and others followed his lead if the women didn’t do as their husbands said.

(Image words in Red) vs 19 – I couldn’t believe it was that easy to get a divorce and for something as crazy as not following orders. I guess I am thinking about this day in age (2018) no one would be married if that was going on today. It wasn’t a marriage, but salvery.

Ch 1:20 – 22 The King agree to allow the husbands to rule over their waves and should speak in the language of her husband’s. 

(These words are in Red) All I can do is shack my head and be grateful I wasn’t born back then. 

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Time to get back to the here & now. I wrote what I got out of the chapters in black and red is how I feel…..

 

Don’t you love it when people give you advice on things they think you should do? First, I have started a cross stitch project. Cross stitch is making a picture with countless little x’s.

 

A cloth with squares allowing one to count where to start. Had an idea on what I wanted, but finding the right picture wasn’t easy. I found the picture, but it didn’t show the squares.

Came close with this picture:

It may have taken me an extra day or two to find this picture and I started it yesterday.

I so happy I found the right picture and couldn’t wait to get started. Everyone liked the picture, although one subjected a different picture, even though they know it’s a gift, (for someone else) and it’s what they like.

 

It’s going to take you a long time to finish. I’m like this isn’t for a birthday or an anniversary. There isn’t a time limit. You do a little each day and watch a picture come alive. Day 2:

I am smiling, because I can see my first flower. I enjoy what I do. If you don’t or haven’t worked projects like cross stitch or crochet then how can you give advice?

 

I was so proud that I did a video blog, true only a minute or two, but it was something new. A lot of good job and one “Let me know when you finish it?” Had to inform them when I write, I write from my heart, and not for length. This isn’t a classroom where someone has to tell you how long you can be creative or what topic.

 

Yet the very people who are doing all this talking agreed they don’t know how to crochet, cross stitch, or have a blog of their own.

 

I just laugh, because people will be people. No one has to agree, accept, or like what I do. I do these things for me and share my point of view every now and then. Maybe people should follow me ledge be happy in what they do or do not do.

 

The End!!!

Ever been in a store not knowing what you are going to buy or even planning on buying anything? Then an item catches your eyes.

 

You walk towards it thinking how nice it will look in your room. Still holding a smile, but that price turned that smile upside down. Oh well it wasn’t meant to be.

 

Weeks later you still see your pink chair and think it could get marked down? If it get mark down you are thinking it was meant to be.

 

Surprise! Not only did your pink chair go on sale its still in the store. Then you think about how are you going to get this thing on the bus?

 

Okay, I may like this chair, the price is right, it says its an extra large, and holds up to 300lbs. I may not be 300lbs (anymore) but I do stand almost 6ft and somewhat over 200lbs, so an extra large exercise ball chair should work.

 

• Then one day I was offered a ride home and asked if we could stop and see if my chair is still there. Yes! My smile returned. I take a breath when I realized I don’t have any room for it. Its cool its in a box and one day I will have that extra space.
• How do you know if it will workout? Was the question. I shook off any thought that said it wouldn’t. Then the day came to build and –
• And, I was wrong. This so call extra large chair is a foot rest. Yes it’s pink and maybe I could buy a bigger ball, but I got upset and gave it away. (Before I thought about it) I am like UGH!!!

The chair helped me balance and that idea worked for me. I wish I hadn’t given it away, but it worked with her height and I know it will be used. So it’s still a good thing.

 

One should always be a blessing when you get a chance. So, you can’t get upset because you lost pink chair.  

 

Then you think how words are misleading as well as pictures. I guess one should build as soon as you can or measure item before you leave the store. Because not all sales are meant for you.

 

The End!!!

 

 

I’ve been wanting to do a video blog for the longest time, but I have never done that before. It’s a little scary doing something new. I once said that I wanted to do something different, stepping out of my normal routine or thought wave.

 

I was told I shouldn’t be thinking about doing a video blog, but working on my book. I actually started doubting myself, then I realized I found an editor, and she is almost done with one of my books. Shaking off negativity, self doubt, and fear. I closed my eyes and remembered who I am. There’s no reason to these feelings and just be bold as a lion.

The wicked flee when no man pursueth: but the righteous are bold as a lion.
Proverbs 28:1 KJV
https://bible.com/bible/1/pro.28.1.KJV

I enjoy the world of words and not always staying on one subject or in style. I heard of people writing blogs, but never thought much about it. I started this blog last year, and post something new every now and then, but I am changing that. I will post at least two or more times a week. And who knows, rather it will be in written words or words that are spoken. Either way  I will be posting more.

 

I have already got a plan for my mornings, so if you go step by step you can see your plan go through. There will be times when you have to change that plan, but if you are like me? You can work around that change and come back to the original one.

 

Since I am starting to get a headache, because I have not had my first cup of coffee. I am going to set up the table on the patio with a book and a cup, by then water will be boiling,  and coffee will be ready. Love me a good cup of coffee.

 

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I know I am not alone working paycheck to paycheck ~ knowing it’s not fun to work paycheck to paycheck.  One does what one have to do in order to the pay their bills. If by chance one could get lucky and they like where they work all the better. Days turn into weeks and weeks into years and you start at asking questions like:

1. Am I able to pay my household  bills?
2. Am I able to go to the doctor, without being worried about going into debt.
3. Am I enjoying life or am I just working just going through the motions?
4. Am I happy?

 

These are questions I’ve been asking myself for the longest time. I can do more then what a paper says I can or cannot do. I have been working retail  for more than 10 years, but because I don’t have a piece of paper that says I can actually do this (Staging). I can’t actually get paid for doing this kind of job.

 

I have always wondered why companies don’t take life experience into account and not just a degree from a school? Maybe I’m just old and and don’t get this new age thinking?

 

So, I stepped out and did what I’ve been wanting to do forever, I gave my 2 weeks notice (even though I know I should have waited until I got another job), but sometimes you have to move fast or yourself doubts may come into effect.

 

You know when it’s time to step out and take a chance, because just barely paying the bills isn’t  getting anywhere. I’m done, been doing that for so long, and this is my time to move forward.

 

Another question: What’s the point in working and not getting anywhere?  Working for a company that says they care, but if you are struggling – open your eyes – and tell yourself “I can do better.” It’s time for me to be me.

 

I don’t know what I was doing or why I was going through YouTube? I decided to type in work at home. I know some are scams and was thinking ahead. If I find something I would go to the BBB and double check if its a real company. Saw a few, but nothing to make me go through that extra step.

 

Then one caught my attention about sending out short stories, true it’s nothing where you can pay a real bill, but maybe a move or two. The only thing is you have to type at least four thousand words.  I’m old school and can’t type that fast. Then was told about a microphone on Google.doc. I never noticed the microphone before and decided to try it. I’m talking right now, with my headphones on and watching these words come on screen.   I can do this and make a few dollars here and there. (Although you still have to reread your words and make it not a run on book. Maybe my next try will be better). Those few dollars can add up.

 

I’ve been wanting to go back to school, but have been allowing the world to have too much control over my thought. I’m going to do something for me no matter what and not be scared. I’m going to step up and out. If you don’t try, then how do you know you can’t do it? The word “can’t” shouldn’t be in your vocabulary.  I told my son at a early age don’t let anyone stop you from following your dreams. I’m going to take my advice and move forward.

 

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